lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 9

Double updated because why not ?
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Seungmin's pov
"Hyung" jeongin whispered as I hugged him...we just woke up yet none of us wanted to get out of bed yet.
"What is it love?" I asked caressing his hair.
"He is in the next room" he replied, my hand stopped moving as I took a deep breath.
" yeah" I hummed.
"I miss him" he said again with a weak voice.
"I know " i said making the younger get up and look at me with huge frown.
"Tell me what should I do?" He asked.

"I can't tell you something like that...it is your decision " I answered.
"He hurt me...us" he said biting his lips" but I still love him" he added.
"And I understand that too..."
"Seungmin hyung you are not helping " the younger snapped getting off the bed " tell me how you feel at least...you are the only one that never said anything  after hyunjin hyung left and every time I bring him up you shut me up out " he added shaking his head.
"Because, I don't want to talk about him..."
"You can't act like he does exist hyung...he is back...he is here..."
"Watch me" I cut him off leaving the bed, such a way to ruin my damn morning...

I walked out of the room ignoring jeongin's calls, I entered the relationship because of jisung...since the first time I saw him I found myself getting attracted to his easygoing playful personality, i never thought that I will fall in love after what happened with my ex but I did...like a damn idiot I fell for jisung, I tried pushing him away from me...I tried ghosting him but he never gave up...after almost a year after we first met we started to offically date.
I made my way toward the kitchen " seungie, breakfast is ready take a seat you are the first one to arrive" chan hyung said offering me a wide smile.

He was busy making pancakes" thank you" I said pecking his lips before I sat down.
"What is wrong?" He asked with frown upon his face, he was notice when we are feeling uncomfortable or annoyed.
"I argued with jeongin " i answered biting my lips. After jisung and I started to date the older told me about this new man he met at work, I was confused at first...he was talking too fondly about him, I was jealous...hurt...I thought he was going to leave me for him...I thought he regret it getting with me...that man was hwang hyunjin our boss introduced him to us  alongside his boyfriend lee felix and apparently friend yang jeongin.

Flashbacks
" if you don't like me anymore then I get jisung, at least have the damn courage to say it to myself...all you talk about is freaking hyunjin" I yelled at my boyfriend who looked at me with wide eyes.
"It is not that...I love you seungmin..."
"Your eyes literally shine whenever you see him...stop lying" I cut him off, he looked away making me sigh.
"I knew it..."
"I am not denying this anymore...I like him...i am attracting to him" he yelled making me freeze.
I can't believe this is happening to me again...after I opened my heart to some one they are leaving me again...maybe I am the problem " go to hell" I was about to leave the room but he grabbed me by my hand pulling me back.

"I am not done seungmin, i am in love with you" he said making me chuckle.
"Yeah, sure... you like two people"
" i lied to you" he said making me frown " more like hid something from you" he added.
"Jisung let go..."
" I am a polyamorous" he cut me off.
"What?" I yelled surprised by what he said.
"That's why I never told you...you are angry and disgusted at me...and I...I never told this to anyone...but...but after I met hyunjin....I couldn't stop thinking about him..."
"He is dating" I cut him off.
"I know" he whispered swallowing hard.
"Damn it" I said running my hand across my hair.

"I didn't mean to hide this from you Seungmin...I didn't want to lose you...I love you so damn much..."
" I am not angry or disgusted" I said sitting down on the bed.
"You are not?" He asked looking at me with wide eyes.
"No, I just need time to absorb this" I answered looking down my lap " did you talk to him?" I added.
"No, I wanted to tell you first...I am so sorry...I will try to..."
"I can't ask you to change for me jisung.. it is what you are" I cut him off rubbing my forehead.
"And I can't ask that from you too" he said crouching in front of me."i love you" he added