lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 17

Jeongin's pov
I stood up in front of hyunjin hyung's room, moving my leg up and down nervously...since yesterday...since after i heard what he said to felix hyung I didn't stop thinking about it...he said that lee minho killed Mrs hwang's killer...
I took a deep breath finally mastering the courage to open the door and enter the room.
"Jeongin" the older who looked like he just woke up said looking at me with wide eyes.
I cursed under my breath when he left the bed only wearing a pair of shorts.

"I have one question" I said clearing my throat.
"What is it?" He asked getting closer, my heart is shaking inside my chest with each step he takes toward me.
"Did the one who killed your mother was deathshot?" I asked without looking at him.
"My eyes are up here inie" he whispered as he was standing in front of me...this is the first time I talk to him directly and alone since he came...and it feels too much.
"Answer me" I said biting my lips.
"Look at me first" he replied making me groan....I hesitantly looked up to meet up with his dark eyes...my whole body froze when I did...damn it jeongin get yourself together.
"Yes he did" he added snapping me out of my thoughts.
"And lee minho killed him." I said more to myself making him hum " why didn't you tell us?" I added.

"Because you cared about mom as much as i did especially felix and you...i didn't want you to get involved with this...deathshot was dangerous...and mine to punish" he answered making me sigh.
"Well I guess lee minho beat you to that" I said nodding my head.
"I would have wanted to kill that man myself but I am thankful for what he did" hyunjin hyung said smiling sadly...I was lost scanning his face...I miss him....I miss him so much. " I know I said this a lots of times jeongin...but I really apologise for what I did...I am sorry...there was not a day that passed that I didn't think about you..."

I didn't let the older finish his sentence before I crashed my lips into his, I knew that this would happen if I got close to him...I love him...I love him so much...to hell with this. I pulled him closer by his waist depending on the kiss, he finally started to kiss me back but pulled back right after.
"Jeongin, we need to talk about this before..."
"No, we don't...let's not talk...I don't want to...I just want  you" I cut the older one off kissing him back before I lead him toward the bed, talking won't change anything...he left...he hurt us and now he is back...I am angry at him but I can't deny my feelings...this is stupid...but I am putting my trust on him again...he is hyunjin hyung after all...

Timeskip
"I am going to give you a second chance " I whispered as the older caressed my hair " don't dare fail me again...because I swear hyung if you leave us again I will never forgive you" my voice was now higher as I felt tears gather inside my eyes.
"I won't...I swear to you...I will never leave your side ever again...only death will take us apart" hyunjin hyung said smiling widely at me.
"Don't bring death you idiot...I just got you back" I yelled hitting his shoulder.
"I am sorry" he replied pecking my forehead "Thank you jeongin...thank you so much" he added pulling me into a tight hug...I let myself melt inside his hold.

I don't know what will the others think, but this is my decision.
The door of Hyunjin's room burst open revealing Jisung Hyung he looked at us with a wide shocked face before he smiled and started to run toward us.
"Finally " he yelled jumping on the bed next to me." You forgave him" he added pecking my lips.
"I did...but if he messes up again...I won't " I replied playfully glaring at the oldest who chuckled.
"Anyways, chan hyung told me to come and wake you up " jisung hyung said looking at hyunjin " but this was really a pleasant surprise " he added hugging the two of us.

Chan's pov
"What are you thinking about?" I asked felix who was sitting next to me lost inside his thoughts.
"Nothing " he said as I took a sip from my coffee.
"Lix, i know" I said making the younger look at me confused.
"About?" He asked.
"Him...Mrs hwang told me before she died..."
"Does anyone else know about me ?" He asked looking at me with blank expression.
"No, Mrs hwang didn't tell them anything...she just told me because I was the leader and we are together..."