MS. ANTIPATIKA

CHAPTER 24

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Wala ng intro intro, forda basa na agad kasi para pa rin to sa mga delusional.
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Sweet Surrender

"Anti! Hoy! Anti!" I was startled when she snapped her fingers in front of my face. I'm daydreaming again. It sucks! It's getting worse. I am getting worse! We are still on the shore and we haven't finished yet our arguments. I thought.... arghhh! I went blank again and daydreamed about that horrible thing. But thank God it was just some random shit thoughts but why did I have that scenario in my head? This is bad. I have an illness. No! Oh my God! It can't be. I just had an episode of delusional scenes, just why?

"Ahm.... where were we?" We're not finished arguing and I forgot where we stopped.

"Sa ano na tayo, nagshare ka sakin ng-" I did not let her finish because I know now my lines.

"So you thought that I needed help just because I confide something to you? Do you really feel that way? We were not even closed enough for you to empathize with me." Pain kung pain.

"Oo di tayo close pero nasabi mo na ang dapat masabi, natural lang na ganito ang magiging takbo ng utak ko." We-wait, we're in this together? This line is familiar.

"Why?" Oh my God! This question.

"Kasi nangako ako sa kapatid mo na poprotektahan kita." Oh this is all in my head earlier and now. No way! I know where this could lead. Stop!
"Anong ginagawa mo?" I was already slapping my face because I don't want my daydreaming to be real.
"Anti! Anong ginagawa mo sa sarili mo!" I stopped when I heard her yell.

"Why?" What? Why did I ask why? That is the script so I should ask different questions that will not lead into a disaster. I should avoid it.

"Ha?" Yeah that's supposed to be her answer not.....
"Anong why?" Oh my God. That's the script again.
"Lumapit sa akin kapatid mo at sinabing kailangan mo ng proteksiyon, akala ko nga eh mangangako lang ako kay ma'am Ashley sa wala pero sa katagalan na kasama kita naiintindihan ko na kung ano ang concern ng kapatid mo. Kung inaakala mong ang paggamit mo ng tao ay walang kapalit na mabigat na kaparusahan sayo, meron. Kung iniisip mong naghihigante ka lang din ay hindi pa rin yun garantiya na mapapabuti ka, na matatahimik ka. Tandaan mo, minsan nang napagbantaan buhay mo at di biro yun." Please stop with the script! It's just all in my head why is this happening right now?

"So what?" Oh my God! Stop being into the script Shana! I can't stop my mouth.

"So what? Kasi may mga taong nagmamahal sayo at takot ka mawala, anti. Si ma'am Ashley at si Keash-" She stopped talking again when she saw me tweaking my hair.
"Gagi ano ba ginagawa mo?" She didn't know what was going on of course. I kept on tweaking my hair because I think I'm gonna loss my mind any time soon. I got nervous.
"Tigilan mo nga yang ginagawa mo at pakinggan mo muna ako!" She grabbed my hand which I shove away immediately. I don't want any contact from her.

"What else do you want to say?" Yes. I did it, it wasn't in the script anymore.

"Anong mapapala mo sa paghihigante? Hindi magagawan ng hustisya ang paghihigante mo, anti." Yeah I know that's her line there.

"Who are you to criticise me? You are not me." Shit! That's the script again leading to unwanted happenings. But it's the appropriate answer to her question, it can't be.

"Alam ko pero-"

"We are not the same, chipmunk. If you see the good side of people well, I don't. All I see is darkness, cruelty and a decaying system." I'm going to rot. I keep saying the script that was all in my head earlier. That was only a delusion! Keep your head straight Shana!