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FYI #7: Alecdora's Letter

"Alecdora-san will grieve your death for eternity, Sophia-san." - Mimosa (Chapter LXX)

𝟓𝒕𝒉 𝑪𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒔 𝑺𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒐𝒓 𝑴𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝑲𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒆𝒓 𝟐𝟗𝒕𝒉 𝑾𝒊𝒛𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝑲𝒊𝒏𝒈'𝒔 𝑨𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝑨𝒍𝒆𝒄𝒅𝒐𝒓𝒂 𝑺𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒆𝒓'𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒑𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝟏𝒔𝒕 𝑪𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒔 𝑺𝒆𝒏𝒊𝒐𝒓 𝑴𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒄 𝑲𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒆𝒓 𝑽𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝑪𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑺𝒐𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒂 𝑺𝒄𝒉𝒎𝒊𝒕𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑮𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝑫𝒂𝒘𝒏

Dearest Sophia,

I think I started falling for you that night on the Grimstone Tower when you got stabbed by a goblin Shade. My world stopped at that moment, and I was so scared at the thought of you dying, which was a weird thought for me back then, because I would've been totally fine if you died. You were really an eyesore, truly an insolent brat—an illness that takes the life out of me with your annoying personality.

I tried to stop this growing feeling, but it only seemed to get worse when we took a vacation in Raquey and you said you'd rather marry Langris than me. You have no idea how broken my heart was when you told me you have always liked him. I should've stopped hoping that I could have a chance with you back then, but I only fell for you harder during those seven minutes inside the dome, when you told me your story and I told mine, how our faces closed in on each other that I could hear the beatings of our heart against our chest. I could hardly believe how you, Sophia Schmitmore, the brat of all brats, has managed to captivate my heart.

If I have regrets in this life, then all of them includes you. I regret not being more honest with my feelings. I shouldn't have pushed you away. I should've confessed earlier. I should've checked in on you instead of indulging in the glorious responsibility of being Lord Vangeance's attendant. I should've told you how much you mean to me back in the Wizard King's Ball. But perhaps I got too cowardly, fearing that you would not reciprocate my love for you.

I should've been braver and proposed to you.

I hope you're watching right now. Scarlett had lived and is now married. She is having a son this winter and just like you, she became a lesser brat now. It's hard not to see you in her. You two are so similar in makes me sick. Also, your family knows that I am inlove with you, and I always visit them to celebrate Christmas. They also made me inherit a boutique where you used to work at, and I try not to cry every time I go there without grief crawling onto me, because everywhere I step reminds of you. Every fabric I get carries your scent. And it's hard to let go of the clothes you made because it feels like I'm letting go of another version of you.

I miss you, Sophia. I long to hear your voice again, even if it would be used to piss me off. Sometimes I wonder if you'd still be here if I had come to you that night instead of prioritizing the evacuation.

When we meet again, I promise I'll make it up to you, Sophia.

I love you. Sorry it took so long to say it.

Love,

Alecdora, your Desert Lord Simp & Sandface