I tried to stay away from those little white pills. And I did for awhile. But being so low for so long made me crave the high I would get so badly. So after withdrawing myself from them, I started again. I know it's wrong every time I swallow one, but at this point, it's better than going back to the knife. I'd rather ruin the inside of myself to hide the damage. There's no reason for people to see it on the outside. That will only pique their interest and let them make more judgmental remarks. And who needs those?
I'm done riding out these lows for days, it's time for some highs.
