You were many things you said. Broken, an asshole, a dick, etc. But you, you decided to drill into my head the one thing you weren't. A liar. You wouldn't lie to me.
You promised you'd never leave. That in fact you moved up here just for me! Hmmm. See how unbelievable that all sounds when you have literally done the one thing you said you wouldn't? You wouldn't hurt me, you wouldn't leave. You would fix me.
I guess you lied about alot. Maybe I wasn't fixing fast enough for you. Or maybe you got bored. Thats what the other girl did. She thought she could fix me. And then she left. You promised you wouldn't be like her. But I guess that just proves my point. You lied to me more times than you probably even realized. Maybe you meant well. Or maybe you had the best intentions set out for me. Or maybe a dinosaur came back to life. See where this is going? If you don't, let me spell it out. Those are impossible scenarios. From the unrealized lying to the damned dinosaur. You are who you are. And sadly, I don't think I know who that is anymore. If you are able to drop me that easily, fine. Do it. No more pieces of me will shatter into smaller ones because you've broken me up enough. But my kids. My parents. The people who picked you up and dusted your damn jeans off and wiped your tears. Who helped you. You just dropped them like they were nothing, a few pieces of grass you absentmindedly pulled out of the ground and decided to play with until you got bored, and then you dropped them and dusted the remains of their dirt off your hands. How could you? They love you as much as your nieces do. Moms trying to find any excuse imaginable for you and your absence. I used to just be angry, and now, now I'm just hurt and confused.
I finally took the necklace off. It hurts like hell when i reach for it and have the realization of why its gone drown my feelings in sorrow, but it hurts more keeping it there. I'd say I was relieved when it came off, but really, that would only make me a liar as well.
