I like to push those nasty whispers to the smallest corners and crevices of my mind. And most of the time I'm successful in doing so.
But there are times there they go from whispers to screams and their insults are all I can hear.
"Lose weight"
"Stop eating, you don't need it"
"Put more cover up on, you can still see how ugly you are"
"Quit laughing, it sounds horrendous"
"Don't smile, it's horrible"
"Don't even try to pass school, you're not smart enough"
"Quit talking about how you feel, no one cares"
"Quit talking period, your voice sounds gross and no one cares what you think anyway"
"You don't matter"
"You aren't truly loved"
"You aren't good enough"
"They all pity you"
"They're annoyed with you"
"Stop crying"
"Stop singing"
"Stop breathing"
"No one would care if you were gone"
"Die, it's the best for everyone if you do"
And maybe those voices are the ones I should listen to, maybe they're right.
