You said you were going to get me something. At first I thought I read it wrong. And then I realized I wasn't seeing things, I started freaking out. What does that mean? Why would you do that?
But the most reoccurring thought was," I didn't do anything to deserve it."
You told me I didn't need to work for it, that this wasn't that kind of relationship. And I know it isn't, but I still feel horrible you're just doing something for me for no reason. I mean I do that for people but I don't like it when people do it for me. I'm not deserving of it. And I really don't understand why you're treating me with such a mentality of me being worth it. Because I'm nothing but a suicidal, addicted, broken girl with no life ahead of her other than a life of doctors and pain and sadness. You deserve so much better and I know you don't think so, but I know so. You deserve someone who smiles all the time, and someone who can do things with you. Someone who isn't broken. So I wouldn't blame you for leaving. And as much as I would hate losing you, I know you'd find someone better, and much more deserving than me.
