Who cares if I get drunk, or even take my pills while do so. I'd say I'm doing well. I have made myself eat today, so who cares what else I do.
You asked if I was hurting and I said yes. But I wasn't specific on what hurt exactly. Yes my back hurts, that was a given. But my lungs hurt, and my stomach hurts, and my heart hurts, even though I like to state I don't have one. I am sitting here unable to breathe again, but this time I'm completely stung out. So maybe it's not as bad this time. Maybe I'll be so completely off the reservation I forget my name.
Or maybe I'll forget what I long for.
