The haze is making everything I do slower, but it's making me think faster. And the thing is, I can push those horrible thoughts out of my head, and enjoy the feeling of bliss and emptiness. This is the one place in my mind where emptiness is acceptable and welcomed. Because in any other situation, that empty feeling would pull me down in a spiral because emptiness equals wondering through the field of unfinished thoughts and horrible memories. I spiral down reliving those nasty memories. So really, this haze is the best place for me. And I really like it. I should take the pills more often.
