I've let myself believe again.
I let myself fall for my overthinking that maybe I'll be enough for once.
Maybe its because I'm a girl.
Maybe she doesn't find me attractive anymore.
I mean we haven't even hung out in weeks.
I fell for that little line.
That small phrase that grabbed my upmost attention and then had my hopes following not long after.
"I want to get back together eventually."
And see, it was my fault because i should've seen it. The last word.
"Eventually"
In most sentences such as these that word is used as a scapegoat, a way for them to leave the topic quickly without hurting the other person. And i should've seen it. So its my fault that I fell for it. And there's no reason to get overly jealous when i hear she just only kissed someone. I thought i was over it. I guess im not. I have fallen for it again and as usual the outcome is always the same; a long night of over thinking why I'm not good enough.
