JEU

GAME 4

AC's POV

"Do you think it's a good idea if I tell her?" Bea asked me.

We're in her room playing videogames. She's  sharing something. She told me that she likes Bianca, one of her barkada.

"Hey, Avery! I'm talking to you." Bea snaps her fingers near my face kaya napabalik ako sa mundo.

"Ah sorry. Ano.. Siguro..... Wait, what is it again?" I asked para mabigyang time ang sarili ko to think.

"Hahaha you're so competitive kasi. You're not listening to my story na tuloy." She said as she releases the cursor.

"I'm listening kaya." I defended myself.

"Sige nga, ano yun?" Panghahamon niya sakin.

"That you're inlove with Bianca, but you're afraid to tell her because your friendship might be affected." I said confidently. Tumango siya habang nakating sakin, making me uncomfortable.

"So, ano nga? Would I tell her or not?"

"I dunno. It's up to you. If you're a pussy then don't tell her."

Honestly, nawala ako sa sarili when she told me she's inlove with Bianca. I don't know, but I feel something strange.

"I'm not a pussy you know that. I'm just afraid that what if she don't like me because she's unto boys? Or worse, she'll avoid me if I confess." Parang nawala yung Beatriz na kilala kong full of swag and confidence, ah.

"You got a point." I'm trying my best para magmukhang hindi interesaso.

"Wow! I feel your support, huh. Best friend." It was full of sarcasm. I fake a laugh.

"It's a matter of risking anything just to get her, Beatriz. Your friendship or her?" Pagseseryoso ko.

"Of course our friendship. I'll rather play safe than losing her." She stops playing so did I.

She lazily lay herself on her bed and I can't help but stare at her.

She looks extra beautiful now- her chinita eyes and straight nose fits her face perfectly.

"Don't stare at me like that. Baka matunaw ako mamahalin ko pa si Bianca." Natatawa niyang sabi and again, I rolled my eyes.

"Mahal ka ba?"

"Ouch ha! That's below the belt eyyy!"

"I just want you to wake up." My response lead her throwing me a pillow.

"Yeah, you're helping a lot." Lumitaw na naman po ang pagiging sarcastic niya.

Umupo ako sa kama niya to have a full access of her face.

She reposition herself and make use of my lap as her pillow. I'm playing with her hair when she asks me again. "Ano nga?"

I sigh heavily and look at the ceiling. Tinigil ko ang paglalaro sa buhok niya. As much as I don't want to help her regarding this matter, I need to.

"Do you believe more in fate or for you, we are the creators of our own destinies because we are governed by free will?" I had to asked her seriously.

"Don't be philosophical. Ayan ka na naman."

"I'm trying to help, moron." I cussed kaya tingnan niya ulit ako, making me feel more uneasy.

"Fine! Fate, that's a big word for me. As much as I wanted to answer you that we are the creators of our destiny because we should work hard for it. I will always go back to Him. I believe that in whatever we do, He has a plan. Sometimes, even if we are working hard, we are working enough, magkakamali pa rin tayo because that's not for us. But, there are also times that even if we are not exerting much effort makukuha pa rin natin yung gusto natin because that's part of His plan."

"So, you believe in fate?" I make it clear and she nodded.

"That's the answer then. If kayo, then let the things unfold for you. Don't rush it."

"I really hate that you always have answers to my questions." She exclaimed.

No, hindi lahat.

"I'm not the one who answered it, Beatriz. That's your answer. I just made it clearer for you. Don't blame me if you'll don't like what will happen next." Pagtatama ko and she salutes.

"Yes ma'am."

She sits next to me and rest her back sa head board.

"Ikaw? Fate or freewill?" She returned my question na ikinagulat ko.

"Honestly? I don't know. There are times na I believe in fate, but there are also times that I believe na I'm the one who created my destiny." Nagugulahan kong sagot. Tanga ko ba? Sorry na.

"That's not the thing I'm expecting you to answer." She looks at me as she mess my hair. "You're really unpredictable."

"Why?" I look at her with my puzzled face.

"I thought you'll choose one." She shrugs. "That your inner philosophical mindset will appear again. Not your confusions."

"Kailangan ba?"

"What if I said yes?

"I'll choose one then. But, I think it will take more time for me to answer you." Sagot ko na parang galing sa kanya ang tanong.

"Take all the time you need then. Answer me when you're ready." Sabi niya habang nakatingin sa kawalan. "By the way, when's your plan answering your great suitor pala?" Nagulat ako sa tanong niyang out of nowhere.

"Anton?"

"May iba pa ba?" She asked while rolling her eyes.

"Dami, bes." Pagbibiro ko para naman gumaan ang atmosphere kahit konti.

"Hangin. Asa ka pa."

"Sayo lang naman." Bulong ko. I made sure na hindi niya ito maririnig.

"Huh?"

"Sabi ko sayo lang naman ako mahangin." Ang effort ko namang magdahilan.

"So, ano nga?" She ignored what I said at ibinalik ang dati naming topic.

"Ewan ko. Magulo. I'm not yet ready to commit, I guess." Katwiran ko.

Pero di ko talaga alam kung bakit di ko magawang sagutin si Anton. He's a good guy naman. He's my friend, my parents knew him. Pero parang may pumipigil sakin.

"Di ba sabi mo, he's a playboy. Wag ka na dun." Tingnan ko siya. I can't believe her.

"He was a playboy. Correction." I corrected her.

"Whatever. Once a playboy will always be a playboy." She said it firmly while closing her eyes.

"Tulog na nga tayo. Dami mong alam." I suggested, making her to open her eyes again para tingnan ako.

"Paano nangyari yun? Ikaw lang naman ang nasa isip ko. Madami ka ba?" Banat niya kaya nakaramdam na naman ako ng kakaiba.

"Wag ako, Beatriz. Nandyan si Bianca so madami nga."

"Di rin. Nandito siya, oh." She pointed her heart na parang ikinahulog ko mula sa taas.

"Ewan ko sayo." I said and close my eyes.

That's Isabel Beatriz Paras De Leon everyone. Ang daming banat na sa una akala mo seryoso yun pala seryoso sa ibang tao.