Imagines/oneshots Book 1

114. devil!Dominic cooper - damning the devil (part 5)

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Mildly triggering? Mention of depression and hints at suicide.

Song: mr owl ate my metal worm by the D.R.U.G.S.

(song could count as a trigger too so listen at your own risk)

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i sat on the porch swing of the house and waited. i wasnt sure if i was waiting for lucifer or dominic or whoever to show up but i still found myself here almost every day. i had nothing better to do but he said he would come back for me so i might as well right? the truth is since he left almost a week ago id done my research on angels and demons and it was starting to tear me apart. my depression has hit an all time high and i found myself using old habbits again. part of me wanted to be reunited with my 'husband' and the other part of me wanted nothing to do with him, personally thinking my liking was some odd form of Stockholm syndrome.

I pushed myself back and forth and fiddled with the black band he had given me. It really was beautiful but I still wasnt so sure of myself. There was still so much I wanted to do with my life, but now I knew I had duties of being queen of hell? Which I didn't even know if that was accurate or note, it's not like Dom had come back or anything to enlighten me. I rubbed my hands over my face but looked up quickly when I heard footsteps on the front porch stairs. It was just my mother coming to check on me again.

"You still waiting for him?"

I looked down at my lap.

"When have I not been?"

I looked up and watched her walk over to sit by me.

"I've seen you go through some of the darkest things but I've never seen you go through something like this."

I tried to study her face, she tapped my knee lightly.

"It makes me wonder where the hell he was two years ago when you at the bottom of the bathtub surrounded by bottles."

"Mom."

It was less of a warning and more of a 'why did you have to being that up.' she raised her hand in defense.

"I know, I know. It just makes me think. You said he has been watching you your whole life, where was he when you decided you didn't want to be here with me anymore?"

"Actually Ms y/l/n I was watching her with the most pain someone like me could ever feel."

My gaze was immediately ripped away from my mother. Dominic was stood directly in front of us at the bottom of the stairs. I stood abruptly and walked to him with purpose. I looked him directly in the eyes before slapping him hard across the face. He looked down at the grass for a second before returning his gaze to me.

"I don't see you for a week. You leave me with all these questions I have to try to answer myself, and for what? So you can just show up on my doorstep unannounced and pretend you cared about me in a past life?"

My voice was raised but it wasn't quite a yell. I meant business but I didn't really want the neighbors to know. He held onto my shoulders lightly.

"I did care about you 'in a past life.'"

He made air quotes with his hands.

"If that's what you want to call it. And not only did I care for you then, but I also cafe for you now. If you really want to know where I've been, I've been prepping your new living space."

I shrugged his hands off of me.

"Do you really how depressed you have made me? How many episodes Ive had since you left?"

He looked down in shame.

"Exactly 28."

I could feel my eyes watering.

"I didn't want to be away from you, honestly, I just wanted you to be able to live a normal life for a little while longer. But I can see that was a mistake."

I stepped closer to him and placed my hand on his cheek.

"If you really want me to spend time living a normal life before I spend eternity with you in hell then stay with me. Let me know you. Let me learn who you are, here, in my domain."

He grabbed my hand and kissed my palm.

"As you wish my queen."

I was trying to search his eyes for something. Trickery. Foolishness. But there was nothing but pleading.

"You promise to stay here with me for at least three days?"

He nodded.

"Then we can go do whatever the hell it is in hell that we need to do."

He nodded again.

"And i will try to answer as many questions as I can my love."

I offered a soft smile.

"Deal."