Imagines/oneshots Book 1

144. Vinny mauro - confessions

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Merry Christmas a day late and happy holidays!

I haven't shown him enough love ya know?

also this feels almost tragic at first but i promise it isnt, oof

Song: help by papa roach
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i rang vinny and he didnt answer again. it was the third day in a row. i knew he was on tour but he didnt exactly make a point to call me back or anything either. i sighed and rubbed my forehead as his voicemail lady sang through my ears her little spiel.

"look vinny, ive been trying to get ahold of you and i just wanted to let you know that ive been thinking more and more about what you told me before you left. for some reason i cant get it out of my head and i want you to know that my feelings are mutual. i like you too. hell i think its more than that."

i paused for a second before bringing the phone down and hitting the nine button.

"message erased."

said the lady and i hung up the phone again. i set my phone on the coffee table in front of me and put my head in my hands. why couldnt i just tell him? he practically poured his heart out to me before he left. the sad thing was i didnt even respond, i just told him id miss him. why didnt i tell him? maybe its cause i wasnt sure about how i felt at the time. maybe its cause i needed to miss him first. i moved to get up off the couch when my phone started ringing. it was him. i froze for a second, should i answer it? of course i should. i clicked answer and put it to my ear. there was laughter for a second.

"hey y/n hows it going? sorry i missed your call, we were busy."

he sounded so happy and here i was beyond nervous and feeling kind of miserable myself.

"oh, i hope im not bothering you then."

i tried to hide the small tinge of hurt in my voice.

"you could never bother me y/n, whats up?"

i stood up and paced in front of my couch.

"uh, um, actually i just wanted to see how tour was going? ive missed you a lot since you left. your instagram stories have kinda been keeping me happy at least."

he laughed a little.

"its been going great actually. we are almost home, doing one final show in penn state and then home free. my moms thrilled."

i drew my brows together.

"im glad to hear that but didnt you guys start here?"

"well yeah but our last show is somewhere else. hey, you wanna come? i could get you a crew pass and you could come hang out and see us play."

i ran my hand through my hair.

"are you sure thats a good idea? i wouldnt want to be in the way or anything."

"nonsense it would be fun, and we could hang out on the bus afterwards."

"uh yeah, okay, where do i need to be?"

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i was escorted backstage by a large security guard who stood with me in the doorway of the guys dressing room.

"oh hey y/n."

chris greeted me as he put his ear pieces in to go out on stage. i waved.

"hey chris, its nice to see you again."

he nodded.

"vinny your girl is here!"

he called and i shifted uncomfortably, the guard still not having left. then vinny came walking in quickly from a doorway across the room.

"y/n, oh my god, im so glad you actually came."

he wrapped me in a tight hug and the security guard sent me a look before walking away.

"i was really worried about that text you sent me this morning."

he pulled away and held my hands in his, i tried my best to smile at him.

"yeah i was too, but i feel much better now."

that was a lie, i was still so nervous, he didnt know that though. what did i have to be nervous about?

"you ready to stand side stage to the greatest show on earth?"

i smiled at him.

"you have Hugh jackman hiding somewhere?"

i joked.

"haha, very funny."

chris laughed at least.

"im kidding, i cant wait to see you guys play."

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after the set he walked to me and i wrapped him in a big hug.

"you guys did great!"

he spun me around.

"and would ya look at that, you still want to hug me even though im all sweaty."

i kissed his cheek as he set me back down.

"of course ill hug you when your all sweaty, what kind of friend would i be?"

he wrapped his arm loosely around my waist and walked us back to the dressing rooms.

"a good one id say, but i was kinda hoping for a little bit more considering how i left you before tour."

he let me go and i stood in front of him.

"actually vinny ive been thinking about that. i couldnt tell you how many times ive called you and tried to leave messages since you left and just ended up deleting them."

he looked at me a little confused as he fiddled with his drum sticks.

"what do you mean?"

i looked down and played with my finger tips.

"it always seems to be the same message but i can never bring myself to let it get sent."

i grabbed his hand and pulled him to the couch to sit with me.

"i still dont think i understand."

i rubbed my hands over my jeans.

"it took me missing you to actually figure it out but i really like you too vinny, as like, more than friends."

he smiled widely at me.

"i wasnt so sure before, like when you sat me down two months ago and just told me how you felt, i was so scared. i didnt really know what to do cause i think deep down i knew already, but youve been gone so long and not seeing you just killed me. and part of me thinks thats why i didnt say anything sooner, because i really like you. but i dont know if i could handle not seeing you when you leave."

he looked down at his lap, trying to process what i said.

"we could make it work i think."

he looked up at me and offered a small smile.

"but what about when youre gone?"

he shrugged.

"what about when im not? doesnt it make it that much more special?"

i hadnt thought of that before. i guess he had a point.

"y/n will you be my girlfriend? despite youre doubts?"

i looked him in the eyes and nodded, smiling at him.

"yeah, vinny, of course i will."

he cupped my cheek and kissed me gently.

"i love you y/n"

i kissed him again.

"i love you too vin."