Imagines/oneshots Book 1

57. Ben solo - here for the holidays

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ITS CHRISTMAS BITCHES! and coincidentally too. who knew i would come off hiatus on one of the bigger holidays, it just happened to be on a Monday. the idea came to me cause we got our first snow this fine Christmas eve and i wanted to do something kind of fluffy. enjoy!

This is a teen/early twenty YO au. Technically taking place before ben starts his Jedi training. Y'all aren't really dating but you've been best friends since childhood and are spending the holidays on a snow planet with his parents.

Song: winter song by Sara bareilles and Ingrid michaelson
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I stepped outside to be met with snow flying about at a fair pace. I smiled to myself and wrapped my jacket tighter around me. I made it a few more steps outside before ben joined me. He wrapped An arm around my waist and kissed my forehead.

"Isn't it beautiful."

I smiled up at him, one that he returned, his eyes glimmering.

"Almost as beautiful as-"

he got quiet for a second and i didnt hear the last word he said, I just laughed and smacked his chest, breaking free of his arms and running forward. I quickly formed a snowball and threw it at him, laughing at his bewildered expression once it hit his shoulder. His mouth hung open as he hesitated to make his own. He hurled it back at me, but I dodged it before it could hit me, crumbling once it hit the ground. I closed my eyes and stuck my tongue out at him before getting hit with a new one he had made. It smacked right into my forehead, making me blink a few times and shake the snow remnants off my face. I looked at him and his face went pale, eyes wide.

"Shit."

Was all he could get out before turning and running back in the other direction. I chased after him, quickly forming a new snow ball on my way.

"You're getting it now solo!"

I threw the ball at him but it stopped before hitting him. He had covered his face with his arm, the other hand outstretched as if pleading with it. I stood before him, mouth agape, watching him.

"Ben."

He slowly dropped the arm covering his face to look at me, the other still outstretched. His eyes went wide and the ball fell. I ran up to him and looked down at the small pile imprinted on the ground. He looked at me.

"What? Was?"

I just shrugged, nudged his arm, and laughed.

"Maybe you're force sensitive."

He just glared at me.

"Don't joke about that."

I gestured to the ground.

"That?"

His face fell a little and looked at the ground.

"Maybe you do have the force ben, how cool is that?"

"it would be awesome, But if I have the force then I'll have to train."

he said matter-of-factually.

"So what? Isn't that what you've wanted since we were little?"

He screwed his face and just shrugged.

"I'm not so sure anymore."

I was shocked.

"You? Not so sure? Thats all you ever talk about! 'when am I gonna get my force powers?' 'when is Uncle Luke gonna teach how to use the force' what happened to that kid?"

"He grew up I guess."

He shrugged.

"You're shitting me right? Wasn't it just last week that you were almost begging on your knees for Luke to start your training?"

He looked at me through clouded eyes.

"He told me the cost of training as a Jedi, and I guess I'm just a little less excited about it now."

I drew my eyebrows together.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm not aloud to have any relationships if I become a Jedi."

i shrugged a little and held my arms out at my sides.

"Why does that matter?"

"Because I like someone and I don't think I could just leave her like that."

My face fell and i looked in his sad eyes.

"oh, how sad, im so sorry you feel that way."

he looked up at me slightly shocked.

"what?"

"im sorry you feel that way."

"why? you dont even know who im talking about."

"im sure i can guess who it is, and even if im wrong, im sure whoever it is will be fine while youre gone."

i gave him a sad smile.

"yeah but im not sure i will."

i smiled and nudged his arm with my elbow.

"sure you will, just tell her and im sure she'll understand and maybe it'll make things a little easier."

i gave him a reassuring smile and he just looked at me, weighing his options. he stood up straight and met my eyes, gripping my shoulders with his hands.

"y/n i dont want to leave because ive realized that i like you and i dont want to leave you. youre my best friend."

the sentence came out super fast and you could tell he was holding his breath after getting it all out. i just gripped his underarms as he still held me.

"Ben, the feelings are mutual, and im sure if you go off to be an awesome jedi i will be fine at home as long as you keep in touch with me while you are off being awesome."

i stated slower, making sure he could take in everything i said. when he did he just smiled and brought me into a hug. when he pulled away he still held me.

"you really feel the same?"

"well yeah, the jedi are awesome i thought we agreed on that a long time ago."

he gave me a look and we both just laughed.

"yes you big dope, of course i like you too."

he just smiled down at me and looked from my eyes to my lips. i stood on my toes, trying to meet him as he leaned down a little, making our faces about an inch apart. i stretched my arms around his neck.

"so you gonna kiss me or what?"

"or what"

i pulled his hair a little making his mouth a small 'ow' and let out a small laugh. he then leaned in and connected out lips. it was a nice feeling and i knew i would miss him like crazy once he left. damn him for leaving but i knew it would be good for him. i was his best friend i couldn't let him not go, especially because of me and my feelings. when he pulled away i stood off my toes and rested my hands on his chest.

"you are gonna make an amazing jedi ben solo."

i smiled sadly at him, one that he returned just as before.

"i know i will,"

i smacked his chest again.

"i know i will because ill have you at home believing in me."

i smiled and he leaned down to peck me on the lips.

"come on ya goob, its cold and we got family to spend time with."

he made a disgusted noise and laughed as we walked. this was gonna be a hard time for both of us, i was just glad he would stay my friend the whole time, even if we were more than friends now. i just had to get through his training, same as him, but i know we can do it, we have to.