Undefined Love

Chapter 29: Loving You.

Ray'vn's P.O.V                                                                                          September 25, 2012

I walked in the house.

I couldn't even take my first breath of air before Mom hugged me.

"Oh my goodness. You're okay." She pushed back and held my shoulders. "Oh my god. Chris you said she was fine. Baby what happened? What's wrong with your face?"

"Nothing ma." "Ray'vn don't do this gaming stuff with me! Now what happened?!"

"I just got into another fight. It's no big deal." "Another fight? Ray'vn baby, what's getting into you? You never had problems with girls before." "Well they start with me. Look ma, I'm really annoyed and tired right now. I don't want to talk about this. At all. I just want to forget about today." I moved past her and started upstairs.

"Okay. Good night baby." I was half-way up the steps when the back door slammed and I saw Jere walk into the kitchen.

I looked at Devon who came inside behind him, and seemed just as shocked.

Jere was hitting the kitchen wall. I ran in. "Jere what are you doing?! Relax!"

He started screaming at me. Then he bit his lip quickly. "Ray'vn I'm sorry." "No. I-It's okay."

I just walked out the kitchen. Mom went and hugged Jere then walked back in the living room with her arm around him. "Okay. I think you guys had enough today. Chris you can stay in Ray'vn's room tonight and Jeremy you can have the couch if you don't mind."

"N-No. That's fine." "Okay honey. You should call your mother. I could speak to her to if you want." "That's okay. I got it." Jere took the cordless phone off the base and pushed past Devon to call his Mom. I know he felt uncomfortable being here but he had to stick it out for tonight.

Chris and I went upstairs.

I immediately went to my drawer and picked out night clothes. I grabbed my towel and stuff to change in my bathroom.

Chris held my wrist. "Right here." "What?" "Change right here." "Why?" "Ray'vn just please. I need to see the bruises he left."

"Chris. I-" I wasn't going to but I could see the pain in his eyes. I put my stuff down then started undressing. I had a few bite marks and hickies around my chest and neck when I took off my shirt. I'd removed the sweatpants I was wearing. The uppermost area of my thighs were a light reddish-purple from Shawn squeezing them as he 'treated' me. My arms still hurt from him punching me. I was surprised that they barely left a mark. You could tell that they were slightly red and swelled. I didn't bother taking off my bra and underwear.

My lower area hurt. Shawn had no sympathy for how he made me feel. He only cared of himself. He thought when I was moaning and screaming I was indicating that it felt good as he man-handled my sensitive area for his pleasure.

There they went. Every moment..haunting me like a ghost. Shawn's face. His hands managing my body how he wanted. The shooting. The bombing. Jere. Devon hurting me. Chris.. raping me, hitting me for his pleasures, no better than his father or Devon. That's when I saw them. The faces of the men whose lives I'd taken. They were chasing me. They wanted to get their revenge for taking their lives away. They scared me.

When I got stuck with no where else to run, they moved in closer. They resembled zombies with the bullet wounds I'd given them in full view. The closer they got, the more I moved and screamed. Their hands touched me!!