Undefined Love

Chapter 7: Breaking

Ray'vn

Silence.

I sat in my chair nervously waiting for Chris to speak. He sat there holding my hand and staring in my eyes.

"I'm sorry about last night." "Oh my god, would you stop with the 'I'm sorrys' Chris?! I'm sick of it."

"Well, I don't know what else to say. It's just that when I saw Devon hit you like that, it brought back memories of the time I hit you."

I move his hand from mine and walk away. He grabs my arm then pushes me against the fridge. He posts my arms above my head. "Stop trying to fight it Ray'vn. I miss you and you know you miss me too. I miss being there. I miss being the one you can always call when no one else was around. I miss being the one to put a smile on your face. I miss being the one to protect you. I miss being the one to hold you. I miss being the one that made you feel loved." 

"How can someone who claims to love me hurt me?" He sighs then presses his forehead against mine. I could feel him breathing on my nose. "If you give me another chance Ray'vn, I promise you it won't have to be that way. I wanna be with you. Please."

The sadness in his voice had all my emotions juggling around all at once. I was lost for words. His dark brown eyes had changed to hazel. The way he bit his lip had my stomach in knots.

"I'll give you a chance, but nothing serious." He couldn't find anything to say so instead he kissed me. His tender lips that made the blood in my body tingle every time we kissed gave me chills. 

He slowly rests me on the top of the counter and stands between my legs. My hands cupped his face softly as his hands rested on my hips. He grazed my thighs nicely as his hands slipped under my shirt.

He aligned the straps of my bra with his fingers then started tugging at them as if teasing me. It wasn't until he tried unclasping the hooks that I had to stop him. "Chris," I whispered in between kisses.

He continued. I pulled my head back then pushed his body away from me, but his head remained in my neck. "Chris stop," I said a bit louder. He completely ignored me still forcing himself onto me.

I finally got him to move back and slapped him. He slowly raises his head, anger in his eyes. "Chris I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that." "I thought you were sick of 'I'm sorry's'? You wanna be aggressive Ray'vn? Well I can too."

What is he talking about?

He put me over his shoulder and started heading towards the stairs. God NO! Not again. I start hitting him in his back, which only made him angrier. He brought me to my room. 

There was nowhere that I could run. Nothing I could do. I was stuck. I kept pleading to him so he would stop, but he wouldn't listen to me. He swore he wouldn't do it again, but the more I didn't listen to him, he would hit me.
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 I stand in the shower the next morning feeling extremely lightheaded and hungry. I could barely hold myself up. Even while being soaked in warm water, my body still trembled. I could hardly open my eyes.

I tried to remove the video of my nightmares from replaying in my head. I continued seeing Chris and Devon's face flashing back and forth through my mind.

It wasn't for only about six seconds that I saw Ray's face then felt hands slip around my stomach and someone's body against mines.

Chris.

"Get off of me. What did I tell you about doing that?" "I couldn't help it," he says kissing my shoulders. "You look so good under water." He turns me around and positions himself to enter me. "Didn't you have enough last night? I'm not being your toy." "You sure about that?" As I was about to respond, he picked me up off my feet and slammed himself inside me.

My body stiffened.
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I sat at a bench in the foyer by the cafeteria. My stomach felt sick after I had finished eating. I laid my head down to try and go to sleep. "Hey Ray'vn." I looked up to see Kelsey and Jazmine from my Spanish class.

"Hey, you don't look too good. Everything okay," Jaz asked. "Yeah, I'm fine." "What happened to your face and why are you wearing that cardigan? Girl, it's like 95 degrees out here."

I can tell you why. "Chris felt that he had to get what he wanted, so pinning me down on the bed and squeezing the hell out of my wrists so they turned a purple-bluish color would be nice," I thought to myself.

"Hello? Ray'vn?" Kelsey waved her hand in my face. "You sure you don't wanna talk? Something is really bothering you." "I..." My mouth zipped shut when I saw Ray coming toward us. I moved my hair to cover my face and held my head down.

"Hey NeNe." "Hi." "Um, what's up?" "Nothing, just hanging out." It was Ray for Christ's sake, if you knew him like I did, you'd know that he was standing there looking at me confused.

"Ray'vn look at me." You could hear the sharp egde in his voice that he was starting to get mad. I remained still. He moves my hair away, so I quickly smack his arm and grab my stuff and rush off. Of course he came running after me. He had already seen my face, so all I could do was look away from making eye contact. "Did Chris do this to you?!" "No!" "Ray'vn you're lying!" "No I'm not! I have to go to class," I said pushing by him.
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Ray

The only thing I could think about all day was Ray'vn. She was the only thing on my mind. When I saw her at lunch I was so happy that my heart skipped a beat. Then it faded slowly when she was acting so strange toward me.

When I finally saw her face, my whole mood changed. I felt my insides breaking. I hate seeing her beaten up how she is. I never had to before, so why should I now? She doesn't deserve to be treated the way she is. It comes to show how heartless people are these days.

Back and forth, I walked around in my room thinking. The anger that I felt right now had no way of ceasing until I got my hands on whoever has been doing this to her. She keeps denying that Chris is the one, but I know he is. I couldn't take it anymore. I head down the stairs and out the front door to her house. I stood there and heard yelling in the living room. I heard her voice. By the way she spoke I knew she was crying and was probably scared.

I heard her squeal, so I banged on the door screaming her name. After two minutes, she opened it. I stepped in and saw Chris. Ray'vn was absolutely terrified. "NeNe what's going on?"

"Nothing. What are you doing here?" "I wanted to talk to you." I turned to her. The red mark on her cheek and the swelling wasn't so bad anymore. It was the bruise around her left eye that irritated me. Water dwelled in my eyes as I softly stroked her face. Then my gaze caught her wrists. Both of them were changing colors. "You gonna lie and say he wasn't the one who did this to you, huh?!" "Ray..."

Her voice broke as she said my name.

That's it.

I turned around and got in Chris' face. "I told you that if you ever put your hands on her again that you'd deal with me." "You wouldn't dare to touch me."

This kid really thinks I'm playing. I chucked him back into the closet door. The hinges cracked and the door fell inward. I swung my arms at Chris uncontrollably like they were on fire. All he did was try to block from getting hit. Then he got a hold of my legs and tackled me.

To be honest, I can't even explain what was going on after that. All I know is is that we both were going at each other like bulls and Ray'vn was screaming for us to stop.

It all ended when her Mom's boyfriend broke us up.

Tears were rushing down Ray'vn's face when we finally separated.
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