New Struggles

For You

Mom, this is for you again.
Why are you with him if you're not in love?
You tell everyone you're with him for us.
We don't need him.
He does nothing but hurt us
Constantly making us cry.
I heard you last night, crying in the bathroom trying to keep quiet.
You don't think I know?
I do, I've been there.
I know you have 20 plus years invested into my father.
But he isn't who he was 15 years ago.
He hurts you, and me.
Threatened to burn our house down,
Kicked us out countless times.
And the last time wasn't the last time
You blame it on him not smoking or drinking anymore.
That was his choice.
And this is your choice,
Stay with him or lose me.
What's more important to you?
Your daughter or the guy who puts you through hell everyday?
Ill admit I haven't been the best daughter, but I'm trying to show you what it's gonna be like if you make the decision to keep him.
I have my things packed, things I need at all times.
Just give me the verdict.
I'll leave now if I have to, I have no place to go, but I'll figure it out.
So many people at work and friends have offered me a place to stay with them so I can keep my job.
I have options, and so do you.
Don't let this,
Don't let him be the reason I leave.
I've been barely believing in love.
Now I don't think I do,
Seeing you with him,
You don't think that has affected me?
I don't want to be with anyone because I don't want to be like you guys.
I don't want a guy like him.
I used to look up to him,
He used to be my inspiration,
The reason I drew and painted.
My interest in art grew bevause he supported it.
Now he doesn't give a fuck, he tells me the things I do are dumb and not good.
He used to encourage me, and so did you.
I don't even know him anymore. I wish I did, but when I look at him,
I don't see my father,
I see a man who has done nothing but hurt me and my family.
I wish I knew what it was like for you,
I wish you knew I would do anything to make him go away forever.
Make. It where you don't have to suffer anymore.
I just want a happy family,
Either he's gone,
Or ill find a new family to be apart of.
One that cherishes me,
Cares for me,
And doesn't get mad when I make a mistake.
A family,
Who values time
And doesn't chose a low life
Over their daughter.