So I thought everything was going great and it was for the time being. I've been talking to people having friends and someone who I thought was gonna be the one id be with for a long time. Well most of my friends are gone again only talk when they want something. This guy well I don't know anymore. My head is so messed up so I find myself thinking, he can do better than me so why am I wasting his time. He doesn't want to be with me I'm just here to pass the time right? I'm praying to god that maybe one day these things will exit my mind and I can find someone who I don't over think about. He's getting aggravated because of how I am. I can't help that my trust isn't there 100% how is it supposed to be? I thought he'd understand, but nope he thinks I'm being dumb. I can't help that anyone I've been with let's me down or lies to me. I always have gotten my hopes up about people, even the first one I fell in love with. So I try to not do that now and it's making people leave my life. He can't handle my constant mood swings of my random emotions where I just laugh for no reason. Or even the times I cry and just want to be alone. I wish you could understand. I'm thankful for the people who do understand my shitty life and my constant bull shit moods. There's only two of ya out there at this point. One has known me for almost a damn decade lol and the other maybe only two years but she has helped me so much I could never repay her for anything she's done for me. Oh god I wish that he would just get it. My life always ends in tragedy, I thought this time was gonna be different.
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New Struggles
PuisiJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...