Have you ever done something out of emotion then after the fact you regret it?
That's about where I am in life now.
I don't know things have gotten weird lately.
Don't know who trust,
I lie to myself.
I waste time on things I know that can't be fixed but the person inside me thinks I can fix it all. I know it's gonna be the same. I knew that from day one. Why do I think it's okay to keep going back and trying to fix. I need to realize that some things I can't change and they have to change for you. But I find myself just forgetting that. I've always been one to give advice to people and it seems I can't take my own advice. I can't even take the advice my friends give me. But if they were in my situation I would tell them the exact things they tell me. And expect them to follow my advice. But it seems I'm just letting everyone down around me and I don't know how to cope. Cut people off that I never wanted to but I thought I had to. To keep other people in my life. But people that love and care about you don't do that. They don't make you cut people off that you love and care about. Shit, i don't know anymore. All these things crashing down around me and all that remains is me.
I look in the mirror some nights and talk to myself weird I know but I try to talk sense into myself. Still I can't find the will to move on from all of this and leave it behind.
One day, I know it will all be better. But right now it's not. And I guess that's okay.
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New Struggles
PoesíaJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...
