You never looked at my side of things. Well maybe you did, but how deep? I have my issues the things I just can't get past. I know you do too. But goodbye? The one thing I never say unless it's the official end. Have you noticed I never said it. But you, you were so quick to. Yeah we haven't talked, you tell my best friend you miss me so much. How could you? I'm nothing, defiantly nothing to trip over. You say you got that girl hitting your phone up, yeah I got the person who abused me threatening me telling me everything no one wants to be told. People left and right just doing nothing but bringing me down.
Now you wonder why? Why did we fall off again. Am I right? Yeah I got someone. Maybe you were too late. Or maybe we just weren't meant to be. When I met you finally the flame in my heart burned so bright. But after the first time I could only think about her. What she did to you, how she hurt you and how in return that hurt me. Not gonna say it was karma because it wasn't. You were never used to me. Used to how I was. Yet you loved me? You were on the otherside of things. Wishing the waves would take me away, and never bring me back. Take me so far and deep into the ocean that I could never make it back. It was never you and me. It was always her or her. I'm not jealous I'm content on where I am atm. I'm just getting used to not talking to you. 5 years and now not even a word. Just writing stupid stories about each other knowing the other is going to read it get pissed or upset and write one back.
Last time you texted me you sent me a song. One that I listened to and kinda teared up. Wasn't even a sad song but relating to it so much. I couldn't take it. You never knew, because I never told you. I never told you a lot of things. Yet I told you my deepest feelings about everything. You don't understand how hard it was to reach the otherside of my mind. To get over the fact that you were not the only one who could stop talking to me. Why tell my best friend how you feel? Tell me. Write it down. Send a legit letter. Be that guy lol. Not frl tho. Yeah I made you wait. I'm not sorry for that. I needed to be ready for everything that could happen. Then in the process we fell out. Not happy about that, but if it happened maybe it was meant to be like this.
You said goodbye.
So, maybe it's time I do too.
The art of letting go is such crazy thing. But here's to the start of it.
Bye
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New Struggles
PoetryJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...
