New Struggles

Thoughts.

It kinda struck me the other day.
My bf got me a flower, I threw it on my dash because it was beautiful.
The next day he looks at it and says 'it's dead you want another one'
Without even thinking I said,
' you don't replace something because it's dead '
He got really quiet after that. I started thinking about a lot of things. So many people are quick to replace things. Pets, people, objects. Just because they are dead or broken I guess. I don't know the meaning of this or me even writing it down. It just kinda hit me that this world works like that. That death means to replace to most.

He continued to talk and said well if we get married and I died would you find someone else.
I once again looked at him and said ' loyalty doesn't die with someone' also had me thinking.

No it's not wrong to get remarried. But I think people shouldn't. My personal opinion. You can have your own. But really, when someone passes away it doesn't mean you can replace them. You can get something that fixes you up and makes you forget but you'll always have them in you, in your heart and mind. This continues to dwell on my mind.

How easy and fast I replied to him. Like my heart took over and smoke without my head actually comprehending it. This world is full of so many bad things. Love and loyalty is so hard to find and keep for that matter. Why do we think once something dies we should replace it? Honestly?

Sorry for the random entry but it just has me thinking about so much. Have a good day guys and to the person who's going through a lot I'm praying for you and your family. Be positive and even when it seems you can't. You know who you are. Just keep your head up just like you told me to. Don't let something take over your happy self. I love you sleep well, please sleep a little your body needs it.