I often think about how I am looked at.
Do I look happy?
Do I always seem a little down?
I just wanna know.
Every time Brooke sees me she asks how I am.
I tell her I'm fine and doing well.
Usually she shrugs it off and says that's amazing.
But the other day she looked me in my eyes and said I know you're not.
I looked at her in awe like how did she know how I was feeling?
Can everyone see that I'm not as happy as I try to make myself seem?
There's a few reasons why I'm usually upset.
My bf tried to argue about everything and put me down or I'm just thinking about my father.
Well the past few days it's been my bf.
Many guys have told me they wanted to be with me. But I don't want to lose him. They allntell me they will treat me better and blah blah blah. But it's hard to just up and leave someone after this long. I never thought being with someone would make you feel this shitty about yourself. Makes me start second guessing if I'm truly worth it, if he's worth it.
Idk just a bunch of random bull shit, maybe one day I'll figure out I'm wasting my time,
Maybe one day I'll be married with children with this man or maybe someone else that's more fitting. Idk. Ig we'll see 🤷🏼♀️🖤
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New Struggles
PoetryJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...
