New Struggles

No Name

It's been awhile, sorry I haven't wrote in awhile. Been busy with work and trying to get out of my own head. Anyway, my days seem to be dragging on. Everyday feeling more and more alone. I'm surrounded by all these people that tell me everyday they care. They sit and listen. Give me advice but, it seems so selfish. There's this boy I've been with him for months. But he's getting further and further from my grasp. I'm holding on so tight but it's like the force he's bering is pushing me so far away into oblivion. And there I'm alone. No one by my side. Not even my best friend. I thought it would get better, I was giving it time. But I don't want to let go.. But it seems he did. Maybe he's only in it for the attention. But if he was wouldn't he text back? Make an effort I guess. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe my whole life is wrong. I'm lost. In the place he left me. I want someone to pick me up and say it's going to be okay. But I do wanna be left alone at the same time. The decision is mine, that's what everyone tells me. But they all tell me to break up with him, then say that. Like idk, I love him. I do. I couldn't imagine being with someone else right now. This boy took me to get fish, honestly never had that happen. Maybe that's just weird. But to me it was so cute. But ever since he came back from his trip, he been slowly not texting back. Slowly slipping. Acting weird. Not seeing him weeks at a time. It hurts me. I try texting. But I never get a reply in time. Or I be petty and don't reply bc he never does and lose my chance to see him. But, is it a loss?

You tell me.

Does this sound like a cheating case?
Does it sound like someone fell out of love?
Does it sound like im over reacting?

Fuck man it's been weeks, this on my mind. All the time. Never going anywhere, all I want is to be in his arms. Telling me it's okay. Even if he's not in love, even if he's cheating. He's there. Idk maybe I'm just hopeless.

Hoplessly in love.

Let's see how this story ends, or if it does end find out soon 🤙🤙