Conflicted.
Conflicted between, I'm leaving you and I'm never leaving.
I'm hurt.
You let her back in time after time when you left me.
Told me I did it to make you jealous.
Then how you gonna tell her you love her then?
Tell her all these sweet nothing that you said to me?
Coming to me saying I only did it because I knew you'd find out and be mad.
No baby, not mad.
HURT
Constantly thinking,
Do you love me?
Or did she leave you so I'm all you got now?
Every time you leave I fall apart.
Then I get stronger and confident.
Then you come back and I crumble at your feet.
HURT
I can't express how 4 letters, one word,
Expressed everything you did to me.
Threw all my weaknesses in my face.
All the way to my dad leaving.
"No wonder your dad left you"
HURT
Never been so hurt by a sentence.
Usually I can brush it off.
But my dad?
How could you?
You know how much I love my father.
Yeah he fucked up but he's my only dad I'm gonna get
And then you say that shit
HURT
thinKing what am I doing?
We're back together.
We fight a lot.
Over stupid things.
You tell me I'm bi polar.
Told me I needed to go get medicine for it.
Honestly a slap in the face.
All I see is you,
You and her. You touching her
Telling her you love her
Telling her how much you only want her.
Telling her you only told me you loved me bc you knew it would make her mad.
HURT.
How much longer?
Please give me a damn sign
I need to know
Know what I'm doing.
HURTING
And hoping I don't have to soon.
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New Struggles
PoetryJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...
