New Struggles

The Future.

I've been thinking about a lot of things, where I'm at in life, love, my happiness, but mostly how I see myself in the future. I'd like to hope I'd be happy, I'm sure all of us wish that. Where I'm at in life is not where I want to be. I need to learn the difference between people who love and care about me and the ones who use and take from me. I honestly wish I could see the difference sometimes. People fabricate love so much no and days and it's hard to tell. I only know of two people that are not my family that actually love me for who I am. I met one from work and let me tell you she is amazing. Probly one person I see in my life forever. I wouldn't trade her for anything. She is my rock and my sunshine on cloudy days. She's been with me through thick and thin, even when I wasnt the best of friend I could have been. And the other I will always have in my heart. I met him through a guy who thought I was crazy. Imagine that lol. But quickly I fell in love with this man. Though we aren't together and we both have separate love life's and such we support each other no matter what. We both want one another to be happy in the future and forever. I don't ever want to lose him. Him and I go way back lol. Back to the days I thought looking like a raccoon at school was cute 🤭. And now as I look back he seen me grow and turn into the person I am today. He's saved my life on multiple occasions and made me feel like the most beautiful girl in times I felt like the ugly duckling. So I don't know where I'll be in the future, but I just hope I have these two by myself through all life's ups and downs.