Well I never know how to start these things, but this time I do. Surprising right? Well I've been doing a lot of thinking, and when I say a lot it's insane how much I've thought about. I wish that I could change everything I've done bad in this world. I know I can't. But it would be nice if I could. One day, I won't have to stress about all this stupid shit that goes on in my life. It will all make sense. But when? I'm always stuck at a point where I don't know which road to take. Currently I'm at a 4 way. Everything stopped around me no cars in sight. But I'm stopped bevause all the roads look terrible. Stormy weather in all directions. If only I knew which one would end in sunshine. 3 directions to go, or to just leave all three and turn around back on the road I was going.
I keep wishing you'd remember that I was stuck, tell me you're on your way. Tell me you'd be there at 6 like you did last time. Keep me safe from having to decide which way is the way. You always knew how to make me safe. Sleeping in your arms that night forever implanted in my mind. I'm starting to get where I can't sleep. The thought of you by my side at night. It was the best night of my life. We stayed up and talked for hours about nonsense. It was 4am everyone else asleep, and we were on the balcony talking about where we'd be a year from now. I never thought it would be us not talking, just kinda a hey here and there because we work together.
But there's one thing I'm sure of. If I could go back in time, I wouldn't. I gotcha there didn't I? Why would I go back, and change something when that's what I wanted at that time? Yes I still want to be with you, but I guess this happened for a reason. All of this, we barely speak but that's how it was at first. Then it was made into something amazing. Maybe we can be friends again. Talk at 4am about how life is gonna be a year or 5 down the road.
I just wish you'd message me more that's all, maybe one day you'll realize I didn't do this to hurt you, I did this to prepare you. Have a goodnight, I miss you 💕
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New Struggles
PoesíaJust some entries, some poems, some just plain feelings and rants about things that are going on in my life. I hope you can relate to my struggles, understand that you're never alone. *Will be updating everyday! I might miss a day though, I'm not pe...
