Never Heard

26.

08th February 2018

"I swear to FUCKING god! This specimen has been happy and positive for the past 2 days and I'm worried. Like what the fuck happened to 'I hate life, I want to die' I'm genuinely concerned about your health Lou." Laughed Isai as he pointed at me. Jane, him and I sat at the back of the class and talked as we usually do. "Yeah Lou, it's kinda odd. Tell us what happened." Suggested Jane, I wanted to tell them but I promised I won't. The urge was too big though.

"I can bet my skinny ass that her and Jay hooked up..." commented Isaiah, I blushed a bright shade of pink and looked down without saying a word. Isai looked at me and clapped his hands loudly. "I fucking knew it! I called it! Jane you owe me 10 bucks." He yelled, I still didn't say anything but I smiled and I guess that blew my cover. "Was his dick big?" He asked, "Shut up Isai nothing happened" I laughed out loud. "That's what they all say..." the boy added as he licked his lips and pretended to moan, "So are you guys a thing now?" Asked Jane, "Nah, both him and I don't want a relationship. I don't know what we are to be honest, I also don't think it's gonna happen again." I said, "You wish though..." continued Isaiah, we laughed and continued talking about it.

I felt bad because I promised I won't tell anyone but I technically didn't.

Today we had sort of a book character day so I dressed up as a my own character from the 'autobiography' that I'm writing. Isai APPARENTLY dressed up as red riding hoods grandma so he made me bring him a dress (it was a disaster because I don't wear dresses at all) and Jane didn't dress up at all because she doesn't read books. It was fun actually and tomorrow is going to be even better. There is going to be a concert in my town and the entire BoOzErZ are going so it's going to be amazing...

After me and Emily got home we had Adam over. Not the Adam from school though, he was a guy we met a long time ago and he lived in the same place as Bruce and Jay. He was best friends with Chris since they went to the same school together.

The three of us decided to cook together and yeah imagine three immature fucks trying to cook something. Yeah that doesn't stick. We did make some pasta and sauce that got real bitter since I added too much oregano.

Soon after that, Greg decided to show up with Noah and Alex and we chilled in our garden.

I had to get up and go to the kitchen to get myself some water; Greg followed me. As soon as we were alone he hugged me tightly and began congratulating me. "I'm so happy for you Lou! You finally got what you've been waiting for, for such a long time. I'm proud of you girl, own that shit." I was too confused to think straight.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, "Oh you know what I'm talking about... You and Jay, sort of getting it on!" He let go of me and looked me straight in the eye. I had no idea how he found out so I began questioning him. "How did you know?" "Jay told me." He answered, at that point I was so confused because he made it clear not to let anyone know yet he went around telling people.

"However, he said one more thing..." the man continued, " What did he say?!" I said sort of angrily. "He said that what you guys did was really spontaneous and he enjoyed it but also he said that you're not entirely trustworthy and he's scared you will open your mouth." Added Greg.

At that point I was furious, first of all, I didn't tell anyone just like he made me promise and then he went around telling others about it and he dares to call me untrustworthy.

"No fucking way." I commented while cupping my hands and covering my mouth with them. "Yo Lou! Don't be mad at him, pretend as if you don't know ok?" Suggested Greg, "Yeah whatever..." I answered and went outside with my drink.

I had to calm down a little bit so I grabbed a cigarette and lit it up. The smoke filled my lungs and escaped through my mouth filling it with the taste of tobacco. My lungs felt empty so I took another puff. I talked with others outside and tried to forget Jay being such a fucking asshole.

After everyone left I told Emily about what Greg said, "What the fuck man?! He's such a hypocrite, first he says not to tell anyone then he goes around spreading it. I swear he's so complicated..." she complained, "I know but I'm still attached man and it sucks!" The words left my mouth as I collapsed on the bed in her room and started at the ceiling.

Should I tell Adam and Isai? I'm pretty sure Jay already told Adam but I think he would tell me then, and Isai technically knows because he's not stupid.

I left Emily's room and sat down in front of my desk and began pouring my thoughts out on the blank sheets of my diary.

'Everybody lies.'

Was the first line on the fresh page...