Never Heard

7.

27th October 2017

Time was flying, drinks were disappearing and my head was slowly spinning. I wasn't drunk though, like the only time I was EVER drunk was in this summer with my best friends older brother and her cousin. That's another story though...

I didn't even feel like time was like slowly passing by. To me, it all felt like a huge pause in the world, it was just me, music, him and my 'new' friends. I was leaning on a billiard table recovering from the amount of dancing I did, who needs to work out? Just dance for no fucking reason. Jay approached me together with Adam, both of them held a can of beer and they tried to make a conversation but I'm an awkward bitch and especially when Jay was there.

Like excuse me! I know what you're thinking. " My goodness Lou! You're so creepy, writing about a guy you're in love with and with such detail. If he read it, he would never talk to you again." And yes, it may seem weird but! I love descriptive writing so I will add as much detail as I want, and if he actually read it then it's his choice to think whatever the fuck he wants so let me be.

Adam cracked a joke; the music was too loud for me to hear what he said so I just giggled nervously. He looked at me weirdly. Fuck! I wasn't supposed to laugh, I glanced at Jay hoping that he will take a hint and do something but he just stood there. I had no other choice then ask both of them to dance, " Oh, I don't dance..." said Jay, I sighed and grabbed Adams hand and led him to the dance floor leaving Jay behind.

The conversation I had with him there seemed way more heated and interesting than the one we had by the billiards table. Maybe because of the dancing or the fact that Jay wasn't there, not really he stood by the table just looking at us. Such a loser...

Both of us danced for the next 10 minutes until the song changed and we were too tired to stand. We sat on the couches by the dance floor, he passed me his beer and I chugged it to the bottom. " Woah. Slow down," He chuckled and I laid back letting the cushion embrace my back. I glanced at the room that was filled with people, everyone seemed to be having fun and none of them seemed to be bothered by anything.

From passing around drinks to sharing a laugh, everything was spectacular. Until, we decided to play truth or dare.

Yeah I know! Truth or dare on a party is a super cliche thing to do but I couldn't help it since all of them wanted to play it. I was awkwardly sitting in the middle of two guys and I already knew what was going to happen.

Jay on my left and Adam on my right. Like how else would you describe my current situation, I can't deny that I wasn't tipsy because I was and I'm not gonna lie I had the guy that I was extremely attracted to, sitting next to me. Deep down I was praying to God that I wouldn't have to embarrass myself.

"I dare you... To kiss the person on your right." I froze, I felt the atmosphere change. I looked to my left and he was already looking back at me. A blush crept on my cheeks as my eyes were locked with his.

In this kind of situations a normal person would get up and leave saying they're not playing but as I mentioned before, I am not normal and I'm definitely not a pussy.

For the next few seconds I sat still waiting for the dare to happen but it didn't. Only until he licked his lips and said, " Are you down?" Those simple words made my heart pound like a drum. I glanced at his lips then his eyes, back to his lips and then his eyes. I felt so embarrassed, I couldn't even say anything. It took me another mini second to reply. "Yeah sure..."

The air became heavy and difficult to breathe, the boy leaned in;his gaze did not leave mine. The space between us got smaller and more tense. His lips met mine, they were soft and a little bit moist but warm and loving.

Again. I know it will sound cliche and stupid but that kiss was the best kiss I have ever had and yes I did have my little make out sessions with other guys but I swear on my life that it was absolutely amazing. It felt like the entire world had stopped spinning, it was just me and Jay and nobody else in that world.

He gently wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer deepening the kiss. I couldn't help myself so I started smiling like a dumbass in between of everything. It seemed like ages but it was only couple of seconds, he pulled away and stared in my eyes once more. I could commit crime for his eyes.

People began clapping and cheering as both of us just sat next to each other awkwardly as if nothing ever happened. I quickly got up and left the room before I got to do another dare, besides I didn't want to make my feelings so obvious.

I swear I sound like a fucking TV series character.

You know these kind of friendships that you make throughout a party or a celebration and they last for like a life time? Yeah I met one guy like that. His name was Mike, and trust me he was in my school and I've always pictured him as a kind of jock and bully type of guy.

It's surprising how I only met him on that party and both of us bonded so quickly that we had sex.

No! I'm kidding! We bonded so quickly that both of us ended up being the only ones that stayed up the whole night just talking about life and overall everything. These kind of nights and friendships are the best kind of experiences. They let you discover and get to know the other person. I guess it is true, people open up way easily at night than during the day.

28th October 2017

I totally know what it looks like and I know it's weird how I'm always friends with guys but hear me out. I'm not really a fan of girls, since this generation is completely retarded and most of the people my age are fake and snakes, especially girls. Not to mention the fact that I've never been really into girly things;that's definitely the reason why I bond with boys way better than with the girls.

I'm not going to say that staying up the whole night was a mistake because it definitely wasn't. As soon as I got home I passed out on my bed, I couldn't even function properly. Not that I was hungover or anything 'cause I barely drank anything but I was just exhausted.

Stuck in a loop of memories...