Never Heard

16.

19th December 2017

In life we do a lot of things, some we wish we had never done and some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. However, in the end they shape every detail about us. But after someone hurts you, you're never gonna be the same anymore.

That was what he did to me and I regret my decision so fucking much. If I could go back in time to this day I would've never go for that walk with you. I would've just stayed with everybody else and enjoy that night but I didn't, I went with you and got extremely hurt. Then you're best friend came and hurt me even more... now I gotta live with that memory forever. So sit back and relax because I'm about to tell you about the worst day and of my life

[ Earlier that day ]

I woke up once again do the sound of Emily vacuuming upstairs. I growled and rolled over to the other side trying to ignore it but it didn't really seem to work. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through the notifications I received during the night; sent my usual morning snap chat streaks and went to eat breakfast. My mom was saying something about me going shopping with Emily and yeah I agreed.

I love going out with Emily, she makes me feel like she's my best friend and I can literally tell her anything. We left to the mall, it wasn't far from my house and I wouldn't really call it a mall but a shopping center. We walked around and went for coffee. She was mostly talking about her and Thomas and how he 'changed her life'. Emily was the type of girl that fell hard for guys and ended up only getting hurt because from my observations she had horrible taste in guys.

"Are you ready for tonight though?" She asked while taking a sip of her latte. "Yeah, I'm totally ready." I lied, from the very first moment when I opened my eyes I felt like something was going to go wrong and BOI! why did I have to be right. "Vicky is going to bring some booze from her house and then Bruce will call the 'milk man'."

A milk man was that one guy that you would call and order booze. He would come in a shady ass car and you would pay him and get your order. Welcome to the 21st century, you don't need a fake ID to get alcohol, just call this totally not weird number and magically you would get booze.

We spoke about her problems for a little longer and left back to our house. We were supposed to meet in the trap house at like 6 p.m. so we didn't really have a lot of time until we would have to get ready.

Honestly, it was the most moronic idea to spend the whole night in an abandoned shed with no light or heat during winter. Why did I agree to this? Because I had no choice since Emily told our parents that we will be sleeping over at Vicky's place. Great! At first it was all fun and games and I actually had shit ton of fun until the wind started blowing and all of us began freezing. The only way to feel warmer was to drink more vodka and sadly that's what most of us did.

Me on the other hand, I was only drunk once in my entire life and today was the second. Only because I got carried away and just drank shot after shot and mix after mix. I got even more obnoxious than I already am. From yelling to laughing for no reason.

The world was spinning and my throat was burning. Bruce was passed out on one of the sofas and Emily and Thomas were making out somewhere in the bushes.

I was sitting in front of Jay who was currently looking down on his phone. "What's the time?" I asked, my vision was too blurry to see properly. "It's 10:15 p.m." he answered.

I was surprised that it's so early and I'm already wasted. I began regretting everything.

As the time passed most of us began feeling thirsty so Jay and I volunteered to go to the nearest grocery and buy all of us some water. Louise you idiot...