Never Heard

54.

02nd August 2018

I guess you could call this the downfall of Louise. Literally. All I'm going to say in this introduction is that this is the day it all began, and ended at the same time. If you have stuck with me this far in the book then you should know what's coming and if this is just a random chapter that you browsed through then you're in hell lot of adventure.

It was a really warm evening, obnoxiously warm to be honest, it was humid and hot at the exact same time to the point it was difficult to drink. Emily and I decided to throw a little gathering at our house since I'd be leaving to Poland in 2 days for a month and also because we wanted to party.

Not many people came or maybe I just don't remember some of them being there. We invited: Nikki and her friend, Jay, Bruce, Alex, Robin and Andrew. It was all amazing, all of had so much fun and there was a lot of booze- as usual. I was really drunk on that night, I don't remember half of the things that happened but the past me was very smart and she wrote down everything that she remembered from that night. However, there is one thing that will never leave my memory and it's just gonna be stuck there for the rest of my days.

I won't extend this introduction much longer since most of you are probably anticipated to know what happened so I'll just jump straight to the point.

We were all outside just enjoying another drink and just laughing at the past memories until I had to make a refill. I stepped inside of my kitchen and opened the fridge to pull out a bottle of coke following by the bottle of vodka that my parents placed in the freezer so it would not get warm because let's all agree on something, warm vodka tastes like shit. It burns 10x more than cold vodka and it just tastes like ass.

As I was pouring my mixer inside my glass I saw a shadow enter the kitchen, I don't want to brag or anything but I mastered the skill of seeing things in 180 degrees, so I could see everything that's happening right next to me without even looking in that direction. Maybe it's just something everybody knows how to do but I've never heard anyone talk about it before so I just assumed it's my special skill. It was Bruce, he stood next to me and placed his glass next to mine, I assumed he was asking for another drink so I made him one. Once I was finished I took both of our glasses into my hands and passed it to him. However, something in me awakened. For the past 2 months I liked Bruce and found him really attractive but I never had the guts to do anything about it because 1) he had a girlfriend whom I knew and she was a really sweet girl and 2) I didn't want to destroy our friendship. So I honestly don't know what switched inside of my head and heart but I knew one thing; I wanted him.

After I handed him his mix, I kind of stood in front of him and began talking, with every word that I said; my body and feet moved closer to him.

I will be honest with all of you, I don't remember the conversation we had at that time, I have glimpses of several things but it's like my brain tossed that conversation out into the air, or maybe because I was drunk.

I began playing with his hair seductively as I carried on with the conversation only to feel his hand slide down my waist and stop at my hips. The boy pulled me closer and to be completely honest I did not know what to do from that point onward because I didn't expect to get this far into this.

In that moment my parents came home and greeted all of us, thank god they didn't see what the two of us were doing; it wouldn't end well.

STORY TIME:

When I was 12 to 14 I was dating this guy from my swimming team and I swear to god his body was amazing, like I really liked him and I knew that he really liked me as well. Once he came over just to chill and the two of us went to the bathroom to just make out. I didn't expect it to be a heated make out though because at some point my bra and shirt just fell to the floor. I think we took too long because my mom started calling me and I panicked so I just tossed my shirt back on and left the bathroom to see what she wanted. Apparently, she noticed that I wasn't wearing a bra and just raged at me and my boyfriend and literally kicked him out of the house.