Never Heard

43.

10th May 2019

'How many times can the same thing break you?' 'As long as you love it'

"Lou!" I heard a voice come from the side, I looked over to see Jane standing over me; her ginger locks hanging in front of her face as they covered bits of her eyes and lips. I came back to my senses and tried my best to come up with some good response. "Uh, yeah what's up?" I said, she sat on the chair next to mine and placed her elbow on the wooden desk as her head rested in her palm. "Where did you just go?" She asked, I smiled and looked down at my hands that were hidden underneath the table. "Nowhere, I was just thinking..." I answered without hesitation, "Are you still stuck up on Jay?" She replied with another question. "What? No! I was just thinking about the whole situation with Adam and all... like he's really into me and Jay said I should give it a try but at the same time I'm scared, like what if something goes wrong or I'll get hurt? But he's super sweet and he was there for me after Jay broke my heart so I'm just confused..." I stated as I was still focusing on my hands, Jane clicked her tongue and looked forward. "I'll be honest with you, I don't like Adam. There's something off about him but I do feel like you should be happy and he seems like he can do that. Go for it you know. Just be careful..." "Yeah, you're right... I don't know though. Right now all I know is that he's super stressed about his physics final and that he's super in love with me. I spoke to Isai about it, obviously he laughed in my face but said I should give it a try." My eyes focused on her now, "That's good then, anyway get up! Let's go take a walk. We're not doing anything in class anyway."

That's how my days went till the beginning of summer, most of my classes were free since teachers didn't really care about us so I spent them by walking around the school with Jane. Occasionally bumping into Jay, Adam or Mike.

What's been on my mind lately is that Max wants to spend a lot of time with me. Not that I mind it, I always enjoy having company in my room but at the same time it was really weird. I tried to keep my distance from him however I'm too nice so I agreed on seeing him. Today for example, he offered that he would come over and we would go to the park together. To be completely honest, I didn't really think that it would be the best idea since Chris absolutely hates him because apparently Max flirts with Chris's girlfriend. It does seem like something he would do but at the same time it's not really a good reason to hate someone for that. I mean imagine you absolutely hated somebody just because they have the same phone or toy as you (not really a good example but bear with me)

So as the two of us got there I thought it would be the best it I just chilled with him alone because I really didn't want to start any fight or drama. However, he insisted on going to everyone else since they've been spam calling me a lot and asking where I was.

Louise you idiot.

Once Max and I began getting close to the group that sat in the corner of the park I could already hear Chris screaming "Why is this bitch here?!" "I'm gonna knock him out!" That already sent a red flag to my brain but I managed to follow my so called 'friend' into the circle and greet everyone the way I always do. That was the moment Adam pulled me to the side and began asking me questions, "Lou, what the hell is he doing here? Chris is gonna beat him up, and he's high on Xanax too!" He exclaimed nervously. Well that was great, life just couldn't be better. I didn't even get enough time to look back at the group because I heard screams, and a lot of slapping sounds.

I immediately snapped my head back to see what was going on just to see Chris and a bunch of other guys that I didn't really involve myself with, attack Max. I looked at Adam and he looked at me, both of us immediately rushed to the group that was currently in the middle of the park; beating up Max. We tried to separate them and thankfully it worked. My adrenaline was buzzing though. I pulled Chris by his clothes and pushed him as far as I could with my full strength, the boy stumbled back and almost fell on the grass. "Are you fucking insane?! What is your problem?!" I began screaming at him, knowing that now I caused a huge scene and everyone was looking at me. I walked over to him and grabbed the collar of his shirt as I pulled him towards me. "Don't fucking do that again. Got it?" I pushed him off of me again, "What's your problem?! You want me to beat you up too?!" The boy was yelling, I was so ready to punch his face in, someone stopped me though. It was Adam, he held my hands behind my back as he tried to pull he back, "Give it up Lou, just leave it, he's high.." I tried to fight it but gave in eventually. Chris was held back by few of his other friends and eventually gave up too. We went our separate directions, I rushed over to Max to see if he was okay.

"Max, I'm so sorry it happened... are you okay?" I questioned, not to lie I did feel guilty. Technically it was my fault for taking him here. I didn't expect something so big to happen. I continued to apologize and Max just kept on saying that it isn't my fault and that he's okay. "I think I'll go though..." he added as he held his stomach and stood up straight. I told him I'll walk him to the taxis so he can take a cab back home, he agreed to that and the two of us left the park. As he was leaving, I hugged him and apologized once again, the boy smiled at me and said it's not my fault then he got inside the cab and drove off.

To be honest I felt like going home, I didn't want to get myself involved in even more drama but it was still early so I made up my mind and walked back to the park. I wanted to talk to Chris about the whole thing. Him and I were friends after all.

As I reached the group of people, Chris and Adam immediately came over to me and Chris began apologizing, I accepted his apology and said 'I'm sorry' too, "I forgive you, but don't call me insane again!" He added with his deep loud voice, I chuckled and hugged him. The boy hugged me back and we laughed it off.

It felt good...

Once I reached home, I checked my phone since I finally had WiFi, there was a text from Adam.

(I'm pretty sure you're really confused which Adam I'm talking about; there are 2 one of them I met in the park and the other one is from school, the one I'm writing about right now is the one from school)

I unlocked my phone and swiped the message to see what it said.

Adam🌺- I really need to talk to you about something. Can you meet me on Saturday? I'll come to the shopping center close to your house so you don't have to take a bus all the way to my place.

I was kind of nervous, like I won't lie, I hate being curious- I mentioned it before but for some reason people continue doing that...

Lou👽- yeah sure, I would love that... see you soon ❤️

And that was it.