Never Heard

24.

02nd February 2018

"I can't believe you're actually making me do this..." complained Isai as we walked inside the school ground. It was a Saturday and every year our school has this sort of festival to celebrate something but nobody really knows what.

Since it was my first year in this school I thought I might as well check it out but I didn't want to be alone so I took Isaiah as my partner.

"Shut up it might as well be fun." I commented, "Lou for the love of god...I've been in this school for like 8 years, I know everything about this shit hole. I will tell you what's gonna happen: we are gonna walk back and forth, people are gonna judge us as always, Jay and his friends will perform on stage and that's all. I don't even know how you guys find it fun." He added. "Yeah but still, Adam asked me to record their performance so I have no choice but to stay here so Instead if complaining just relax and continue being the same moron that I call my best friend." "I swear to god you're only here just because Jay is performing..." he said, "oh whatever!" I explained while giggling.

As much as I hate to admit it, Isai was right. It was boring as shit. We could've gone somewhere together and chill. I needed to smoke too.

Oh I'm sorry! I forgot to mention... I started smoking in January. I'm not proud of it but it gets me relieved. I know it's bad but I guess it's how teenagers are. Expect Isai because he's a fucking alien.

It was actually so boring. Unfortunately, Jane couldn't come because she traveled with her family for a weekend so it was down to me and Isai.

At one point me and Isai were done with this bullshit, we skipped Jays performance and we dipped to McDonalds that was right next to our school. As we walked we talked about life and what's going to happen in the future. I pulled out my pack of cigarettes and lit one on them. The smoke filled my throat and lungs. I felt as if all my problems were disappearing with every exhale that I did.
Of course, he had to start mocking me about me dying soon and my lungs turning into ash but I didn't really take it to heart. We just kept on laughing until he asked.

"Why did you start smoking?"

I took a minute to think about it, "Why? Well probably because of everything that's been happening lately. Jay, me hating myself and all that sort of crap. It sounds stupid and edgy as fuck to ruin yourself because of a guy but isn't that how it goes? People take their own lives because they didn't get love from the one that they desired the most. Yeah, okay, smoking can count as taking your own life since it "kills you sooner" but if you think about it, everything can kill us so why not just live in the moment and try everything that's there." I stated

"I swear why do you always have to be so fucking deep about everything? And I will tell you one more thing, everyone should fall in love once. Just to know why you should never fall in it again..." Said Isai, he wasn't wrong though, my life is basically an entire movie. It's like living in one of those T.V series. Besides, I like to see the inner picture of everything that surrounds me. It just makes my life a little bit interesting, sort of like a hobby.

We reached the McDonald's and I put out my cigarette. It was already dark so it made me look even more sophisticated. As we waited for our food I had an idea. "Yo! Why don't I write a book?" I suggested enthusiastically, "What?" He questioned, "Yeah, like I will write sort of an autobiography about everything that's happened to me ever since September when I came to school." I kept on talking, "Okay, but you might get in a lot of shit cause some people might think you're talking shit about them and what they did to you, like remember what Max did?" He asked, "Ugh! Don't even remind me..." I answered, "Yeah so like exactly, he was gonna tell Jay you're a slut because you got with him soon after you got with Jay, even though it wasn't true. People can twist stories and use them against you." Said Isai, "So like I will just change the names and settings so they can't figure it out..." "yeah! That can work, do that. But like I won't read it... I don't like reading." He added, I snorted and commented "Do you even know how to read?" He looked at me with an annoyed yet happy expression, "Oh you're being racist now... I see Lou, so just cause I'm black I can't read. Okay okay. Let's see how you get home." He laughed as he went to get our food.

We ate and continued talking. "I'm probably going to leave next month... Forever." He stated. I almost choked on my food. "What?" I asked concerned, " I got a scholarship for a boarding school in Spain, so I can start playing football professionally." He continued, "It's not sure yet though so don't freak out." He finished. I was kind of relieved but worried at the same time. If Isai is going to leave me I have no idea what I would do to myself. I can't picture my life without him and I know that it would just suck.

When we finished eating we went back to the school and got a cab back home. It was a long day and both of us slept in a backseat.

If he actually leaves I'm gonna miss him a lot...