I just had an epiphany. Its not a good one. But I just was laying in bed, listening to music and thinking and I thought about something. I'm never gonna be that girl. I'm never gonna be the girl that people show off. I'm never gonna be the girl that is allowed to post pictures of her friends. I'm never gonna be...beautiful. alright, even I'll admit I'm cute, sometimes. When I spend an hour on my make up and flat iron my hair until it's pin straight and fried to a crisp. The only time I get noticed is when I have a low cut top and even then, not really. And I don't wear those often. I'm actually pretty modest but people assume by my choice of judgement that I'm a slut. But here's my question: how can one be ugly, and a slut? It's not like my personality can get me laid. My eyes don't do all the talking. My ass is well..its an ass. It doesn't exactly do much. So if I'm ugly and a slut, what does that make you exactly? I'm fine with being just ugly. I'm not okay with being a slut but it's not an insult that hurts me. So pick one. Am I ugly? Or am I slut? Because I can't be both. I don't know maybe i should stop with the social media again. Its getting to me. Its making me think things I usually don't think and feel things I hate. Even worse, I'm semi-confident so if what you're saying is true, I'm a confident, ugly, slut. I'm just gonna point out that that is the most illiterate thing I've ever heard. I can't be confident, and ugly, and a slut. So fuck you. I'm choosing my own thing. I'm choosing confidence. Because if I believe I am ugly, i will be. If I believe I am a slut, it will happen. So no. I'm not a slut. And I'm not completely ugly. So fuck. A. You.
