I know you don't love me. Honestly I'm surprised if you still have any feelings for me at all. I notice the distancing. I notice the subtle way you turn your phone away from me and the way you walkout of the room when your on the phone. I notice the tone in your voice when you talk to her compared to when you talk to me. I notice the way you'll look at me sometimes and it's not the way it used to be. I notice everything. I wish I didn't. But I do. I'm sorry that I'm such a mess. I'm sorry I always overthink and I'm sorry I'm bad at keeping up with things. I'm sorry I can't be the girl your used to. I'm sorry I can't be like the past ones. I'm sorry I can't be into everything they were and love everything you do. I still love you. I still want that life with you more than anything else in this world. I want it all. But if you don't, then please don't waste anymore of your time on me. I'm kind of a lost cause. Eventually I'll be okay. And eventually I'll be better. Once I get everything settled. But your not gonna want to wait around for that long. I still offer up everything I've promised you. And I'll keep to every single one. But if you want out, this is your time. Because if you leave after this moment, I'm not sure I'll be able to handle it.
