I wonder if it hurts to die. Like I'm curious, if one could do it in a nice way, where there would be no mess, and be no pain, would God make an exception? Would God still allow his child to come to him, even though they took their own life? What if it was under extenuating circumstances? What if the child's entire life has been nothing but pain and fucking torture and all shes done is try and try and FUCKING TRY to be a good person, and when she finally finds a sunshine, he beat her down to the point where she couldn't get back up because he was a snake in disguise. And then when she finds a REAL sunshine, she can't reach it. She can't touch it. It's just out of her reach. And then when her world finally begins to crumble as she thinks over everything in her life that has fucking destroyed her, does God know? Does He know how much pain she's in? Does He understand how badly she wants it to stop? They say God doesn't give you what you can't handle. What if all of this pain, wasn't from God at all? But the Devil himself?
