Pain. That's literally all I feel is pain. Not mental. Not this time, anyways. Well I always feel that mental/ psychological pain but this time it's more physical. I did something stupid and now I hurt. All this fucking pain I'm not sure what to do. Do I eat? Do I do school work? Do I watch netflix? Do I call someone? What do I do? Everything I've been through has changed me. Everything that has happened in the last few months has made me realize something: it doesn't matter what they say. It matters what they do. The people who once were your best friends, are now total strangers. The man you were once in love with, doesn't even think about you anymore. Neither does the man you are in love with. Family is important, no matter what but that doesn't mean allow them to treat you like shit. All around, I've realized that the only way to get through life is to be a heartless bitch. Or at least pretend like you are. I'll never lose my values. I'll never lose my patience or my kindness. But I will never, and I mean EVER allow another human being to treat me like trash ever again. And that's the tea, bitch.
