You ever feel heartbroken all over again? Like you're fine for 9 months and then out of nowhere you learn something new about the relationship and it's bam you're fucked up again? You ever get over someone, and be fine, like you're okay, and then you find out they still love you and your heart breaks? Because you know you can't go back to them because their gonna destroy you but your heart fucking yearns for them? We had a fucking wedding planned. We were going to get fucking married. I had a list, bridesmaids, flower arrangements, center pieces, I had FUCKING EVERYTHING. And I was ready to come to you. After you left me and broke my heart, I waz ready to move 800 miles away from everyone I knew and everyone I loved, to be with YOU. AND YOU COULDN'T GO 2 DAYS WITHOUT SEX???? ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? We had our kids names planned out, you helped me stop drinking, I fell in love with your family, and vice versa. I FUCKING LOVED YOU. And you broke me. And noe, I can't even love a perfectly good human being properly without becoming crazy about it because you hurt me. No. You destroyed me. Maybe in a year or two I'll be okay. But right now, I am so fucking broken because of you, I've had to turn to sex, drugs, and bad music to get me through my day and YOU caused it. I hate you so much for hurting me. But every damn day I wish u would've climbed in that car with you, and never turned back. Fuck you.
