"What would you do if....?". This is the question I ask myself a lot. What would I do if I won a million dollars? What would I do if I met 5 Seconds of Summer? What would I do if I was kidnapped? See how things differ? I'm always worrying about something. I'm always overthinking and I'm always scared. Maybe it's just in my genes to be a bubble gum girl. Maybe I was m ever meant to be a bad girl. And maybe, that's okay. I don't have to party to have a good time. I don't have to drink either. And the drugs..well..i can stop whenever I want. The drugs help me sleep and they help not to worry so damn much. Maybe I was meant to be the girl, who is always in the back and while everyone is partying and having a good time, she's lost in a whole other reality inside the pages of a book. That's what I think is having fun. Reading a good book on a rainy day. Or going I've skating and busting my ass but laughing it off. Or even just relaxing and watching videos. I have never been to an adult party. And you know? I don't want to lose what innocence I have left. So I won't be going to one, any time soon.
