The one thing I've been waiting for, for so fucking long is finally making progress. It's not there yet. And it's on the rocks, so not sure if it will ever get there. But at least I know I didn't wait for nothing. I am now about to be very, very wealthy within the next year. I'm gonna be a homeowner in 6 months or less. I'm getting my license tuesday, and a car in the next 2 or 3 weeks. My life is looking up. But the one thing I am most excited about is the future I'm hoping for. If everything goes my way, not even my way, the right way, I will have no reason to be depressed. I will never feel sad. And I will never EVER feel the need for self harm again. If everything goes according to plan, within 6 months, I will be the happiest I have ever been. It's not about the money. It's not about the flashy car and huge house, although that's definelty a factor. It's about who comes with me to buy the car. It's about who want a to live with me in the big house. It's about that maybe, just fucking maybe, life will work in my favor for once. Maybe life will give me candy instead of lemons. These last few days, ive been the happiest I think I have ever been. I just got over excited. I got crazy. I got childish. And I lost my patience just a little bit. But I'm over that. I will continue to be patient. Because all I want for christmas, is for life to give me the one thing I've been waiting for. And the only way to get that, is to be patient.
