I'm heartbroken. Not like anyone gives a fuck but I am. I'm hurting bad. Bad enough to have panic attacks back to fucking back and down half a bottle of pills bad. I'm hoping I don't sleep. I can't sleep anyways. I'm alone. In my bed. I threw all of m things away so all I have is me, myself, and a pillow and blanket. It's time to grow up. And fuck it's never hurt this bad before in my life,
