Make You Fall

Chapter 82

Courtney's POV

Nakita ko kung paanong bigla na lang umalis si Crystal at hindi manlang sya hinabol ni Kean. Why? Bakit mas pinili nyang manatili dito kesa sa suyuin si Crsytal? Does it mean that he chooses me over her girlfriend? I don't know but a smile etched to my lips.

Agad kong itinago ang ngiti ko ng makita ko syang pabalik na dito sa table namin. "What are you smiling at?" cold nyang sabi. Kanina lang ang sweet ng boses nya sakin. Tapos--nevermind. I need to enjoy this.

I quickly shake my head. "N-nothing." I uttered and sipped my frappe.

I heard him sighed. Inilagay nya ang dalawa nyang kamay sa lamesa. "Don't over think Courtney. Wag kang mag-isip ng kung anu-ano." sabi nya.

"I'm not thinking anything Kean. Ano bang sinasabi mo?" maang-maangan kong sabi. Please Kean. Kahit ngayon lang hayaan mo na ako.

"If you're thinking na mas pinili kita kesa sa girlfriend ko. You're wrong. I'm just giving her some space. Some time for her to think." sabi nya habang nakatingin sakin using his blank expression.

Ngumiti ako ng mapait. "Y-yeah. Baka nagulat lang sya." I paused then sipped my frappe. "I-I'll just go to the restroom." sabi ko sabay bitbit sa maliit kong shoulder bag.

Tumango lang sya at nanatiling nakatingin sa mga kamay nya. I think malalim ang iniisip nya. And I'm sure it's about Crystal. Lagi naman eh diba? Asa namang maiisip nya ako kahit minsan. I'm not his girlfriend. Pero ako dapat yun.

Pagkapasok ko sa Restroom, napasandal ako sa may pinto and my tears quickly flow. Bigla na lamang bumagsak lahat ng luha ko na kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Masakit? Sobrang sakit na yung taong minamahal mo ng sobra ay hindi ka magawang mahalin pabalik and the fact that gaves me much more pain is he love someone else.

I smiled bitterly at own my reflection. Is it wrong to love someone who love somebody else? They said that if you love someone, you have to do everything for you to get that person. Pero bakit sa sitwasyon ko hindi pwede? Mahal ko si Kean. Hindi lang basta pagkakagusto dahil mahal na mahal ko sya. Bakit naging mali yun? Hindi ba pwedeng kapag mahal mo mahal ka din? It's unfair right?

I'm also thinking, why did he chose Crystal instead of me? Hindi ba pwedeng ako na lang? Why her? Is it because she's pretty? Maganda din naman ako ah. Dahil ba sexy sya? I'm sexier than her. Dahil matalino sya? I'm even smarter than she is. Because of her personality? I'm also like her and kaya ko syang gayahin kung kinakailangan. And of course, I can be better keysa sa kanya. Then why? Bakit hindi nya ako kayang mahalin pabalik?--What am I thinking?

I shake my head because of what I thought. I open the faucet and I let the water to flow and open my hand to get some water. After that I get some tissue paper to wipe the water from my face at inuha ang make-up ko para mag-retouch.

I need to look pretty in front of him. Hindi porquet my girlfriend na sya ay dapat na akong magmukmok, instead I should look better. Alam kong may girlfriend na sya. So what? I love him.  I can't stop myself from loving him more. And I can't stop myself from letting him just go.

Pagkalabas ko ng restroom ay agad tumingin ako sa table namin. He's looking at his phone, maybe it's Crystal. I shake my head. Stop being nega Courtney. Eh ano naman diba?. I smiled at bumalik sa table namin. "I'm sorry for keeping you waiting. Ano na palang gagaw--"

I stopped halfway when he suddenly stood up. "I need to go now." he said using his cold voice again.

Tumayo na din ako. "H-ha? Why? I thought we're going to spend an hour here and talk?" tanong ko sa kanya. At umaasa na sana mag-stay pa sya. Kahit saglit lang.