Titania's Love Story

Chapter 11: What to do

After finishing my new chapter and texted my boyfriend hoping he'll respond but if he doesn't I don't blame him after what he read and re-read his new chapter he felt his life slipping away cause for what I did but I couldn't bring or dig more deeper to my feelings til he's ready, I know he's my boyfriend but I think these tears I'm fighting back streaming down my soft cheeks and my plump lips quivering, for making my own boyfriend sad and I'm feeling that emotions right now the way he did. I was confused on the chapter I can make it out when it happened but that one was confusing for me feeling this guilt I should take the blame and I am. In the end of the chapter it says I don't deserve this and mid reading says why wouldn't I speak to him. Tch, either way I'll talk to him rather he's being Dick or not, and rather me being in pain, it doesn't matter I've been through alot more pain but pain in a relationship this is the first but I'm an Aries I get hurt then I move past it but if your ass is dying on some short then yes I can't move past that one. I would trade my life for his, and yes I was talking bout hin cause well let's say I love to talk bout my boyfriend so much that he makes me happy .

'You may feel this guilt now but rearing the message you guys have together he does make you happy and shows his love to you and showing it as much as you are'

I scoffted knowing my heart was right but it was being a bitch earlier this morning. At this rate still laying in my bed and in my room waiting for my mom and sisters to leave so I can have alone time, the weather got me sleepy and I couldn't stop thinnking bout my boyfriend all day today to know if he was okay or not , now knowing he's crying cause me. I don't like nor see him cry, I would put my life on the line but I think I have two choices. Either A- cut myself to feel pain and keep going then continue tomorrow cause of the guilt i have my heart and die or B -live for Matt and hope he takes to me whenever he's ready. We screw up at times but him and I are mesnt to be together and finally clearing my head and mind. I'm always battling between life and death, death for hurting and caused pain by that someone but at the same I chose to live no matter how many times I try to give up but in the end I can't give cause he's the best thing ever and he's worth it and Im wanna live for Matt and die together that's my wish. He tamed me as his kitten and I tamed him as my wolfy. I want him to spam me and check on me and asking if I'm alright or not I want to open up to him even more but I'm waiting til he's ready for to open all my feelings. I was watching once a poun a time then saw the notification bout my wolfy story reading it,  broke my heart. He fear of getting rejected again and can't take it anymore,  reading what he said bout me make me smile and blush , I can't move on and he's saying sorry. I wasn't rejecting him by no means wants so ever