Titania's Love Story

Chapter 75: Fate

Well work was good so far but it made my day better seeing my baby cousin during lunch hour that made me happy, I did talk to my boyfriend for awhile and I'm worried for Daniel he's not feeling his best at all so my fellow readers keep him in your prayers please and let's hope he gets better. It's already quarter to 8pm here in my time waiting for my beloved to call me, this is the Sunday I haven't heard his voice in a long time and that I'm alone. It's funny that when I saw his morning I didn't smile like I normally would but not hearing from him It's different , it's like when I give him one first or back he would call me til I to work then call me after my shift, that didn't happen this time. I wonder if fate playing games with me, I don't have time to be playing games...I've been hurt and broken long enough. This would be the second night I'll be all alone and my son would make me laugh or laugh again, once I put all my time, love, effort into something I'm very determined,  but I never get the same in return when i finally do things tend to fall apart. This is how my relationships was in the past, we talk for a few weeks get attached then fall apart..I don't wanna go through that again cause it makes me think other wise like if he doesn't love me anymore or am I in the way of he wants. I even told him that I was sorry for being clingy and alight annoying cause I haven't heard his voice. That hits different from getting a text and hearing a person's voice it'll change everything.  I look for his name to pop up or at least wait for him to say something but nope nothing. He might be asleep now and I've been lied to from him that scar me...why tell me something if your gonna do it and I feel upset. For once I can finally be happy with someone but I guess fate has its own games and knows how to play with people's feelings. It's not funny nor fun, finding a soulmate only happens once in a lifetime, I eat every single day cause he cares bout my health...guess I go back half starving myself a little , I can't starve myself fully like i use to since now I have my son.

When you truly love someone you cry over them and feel different emotions,  always wanan talk to them and so much more but you don't the chain to break. There's a saying that 'you never really know what you got til it's gone' It's crazy that somethings repeats itself,  If I'm feeling some type of way I want someone to resure me that everything will be alright and that we'll be okay. I guess fate is putting us to the test right now my head is running wild thinking he's doing something else and he might be asleep now but still even if I'm tired or when I wake up and check up on people. Speaking of the devil he hasn't gone home yet wonder why but I figure it has to do with Daniel and I was right. I told him I understand since he wanted his father to stay with him thsts pretty natural for a kid to their parents to stay. I would do the same for Tyson  as well but still check up on every one. I guess it's okay that I hear from him every now and then but I guess I miss hearing his voice. *sighs* right when I got home I got comfortable let my son sleep then when he woke up took a shower then took a nap I was tired and still am, I heard my phone buzz thinking it's my lover it was my baby sister I did answer but she heard the sleepy in my voice and she said she'll talk to me later I think I'll call her back soon don't know whe tho since it's a school night for her. I guess I might give myself some nightmares or they come natural who knows since my lover is taking care of his son and I'm like a ghost to him I did hurt myself a few times but that's natural for me *yawns* dammit I told my grandma that that still tired cause my nap wasn't very long I can't can't to sleep til Tyson goes to sleep no matter how tired I am, I nearly ate my dinner which is fine I'll eat something later on tonight , but I can sleep in tomorrow since I'm off work. When it comes to my off days I'm mainly happy cause I can sleep in and don't have to worry bout waking up on time for work, some days I do and I regret waking up early on my off days, I have a feeling one day I'll be working on my off days but I know that's not gonna happen cause my body is use to my schedule but then again it's use to being waking up every morning or whatever I choose to. My son tyson almost scared to death cause he was leaning back while I was holding him then he started talking as I put him down. I just hope I can hear my lovers voice again  since I'm off tomorrow if not then I'll take it as a sign. Part of me wants to do the same thing to him that revenge on my case or make someone taste their own medicine. Welp imma gonna get some ice cream then head upstairs get on my laptop and gonna try to at least type up my poem on there. I don't mind writing it on paper but if like water or anything gets on it you can't see what it says plus doing it pencil the there's gonna be a smudge ink it's cool but it'll wash off. So that's my goal for the night, and my son is so gofy at times welp stay tooned kitten out