Titania's Love Story

Chapter 60: Worst feeling

Well today wasn't so bad for me the weather was very nice went out for a walk with my mother so that way my stubborn son can come out! Ugh he's just like me likes to keep baking but I was forced out and he'll be the same way haha like mother like son how funny is that? Anyways I been feeling less pain but not to much; every time that I move my hip flexers hurt so much that's painful to me *sighs* I've watched a video about labor and birth.  I watched it and looks very painful for me... I'm even more scared than ever. Everyone keeps telling me I can do this but really I feel like I can't fucking do this!! Giving birth to a child is scary anything could go wrong and, I don't want that for my son...I just fear that something could go wrong when I give birth to my son that what's scares me the most that I might lose him during birth or after he's out of me. I keep thinking to myself can I really do this? Give birth without being scared? Who in the hell with their right minds give birth without being scared? This is my first born and I'm scared as fuck! Feeling all these pains in my body is like burning up into flames, getting different pains every where and every single day. Being pregnant isn't easy I can see that now good thing after I drop my son I'll be on birth control and it's going to stay that until I get married with someone that I love and hopefully that will love my son as well.

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Well being home again is great along with my son, yeah staying at the hospital is nice and all having the nurses taking care of me and my son.  I was very happy to go home with my sweet prince knowing that he'll be with me and never go far from my reach, my mother instincts kicked in and it mixed with my spirit animal with is a wolf so I'm very protective of him. My siblings on the other hand really making me mad don't get me wrong people I know it's their nephew but he's not a fucking toy! They fight over him and keep asking can they hold him ugh; my son will be spoiled yes mostly but really he's not going to be held that often plus he's going to cry on his own. Sure I pick him up time from time but not all the time hell I would never let my sisters babysit him not ever or anybody really since he's a new born and I want to keep him safe but, it's clear my sisters don't get that. I'm recovering from a major surgery and this was my first surgery ever! sure I minor injuries , broken a bone had to get stitches but surgery was the last thing I wanted in my life and on my body. Half of my family gotten surgeries it's scary to me really just the thought of it gives me the fucking creeps and sends shivers down my spine. I will explain everything in the next chapter and how things went. I know I was a ghost and Im sorry my fellow readers it's been tough for me in the past few days, hopefully I can explain it today if not then tomorrow until next time