since no one will rp depressed tai w/ me, ive been forced to write it mineself.
Type: angst
character(s): tai, Matt, Sayako, Izzy, Mimi.
TW(s): panic attack, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts/actions.
stay safe.
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Pov: Tai Kamiya
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I sat in my room, sighing as I removed my gloves.
The others knew I was depressed, they didn't know that I hurt myself. They never would. I wouldn't give them the chance.
I was the leader, I had to be strong.
Even though I wasn't.
I had to at least pretend.
It's hard to keep a secret when it's written all over your body.
That said, I grabbed a razor and brought it to my wrist,
I slid it across my skin and watched the blood pool, fighting tears, before i finally dropped the razor and started crying.
Real men don't cry,
I thought to myself.
"Matt would be a better leader, hell, Kari would be a better leader," I mumbled, wrapping my wrists up and sobbing.
That was when I heard my door creak open.
Matt, Sayako, Izzy, and Mimi were all in the door, looking at me sadly.
Mimi walked over and hugged me gently, I struggled at first, but I settled, tears building again.
"It's okay to cry, Tai." Matt assured, walking aver and sitting down on my bed.
Sayako nodded, also sitting down.
Izzy walked over and hugged me on the side where Mimi wasn't.
That was when I started crying.
Mimi gently wiped my tears but let me cry until I stopped.
"Tai, you're an amazing leader." Sayako told me.
I nodded, Izzy sighed,
"Tai, it gets better. I promise. It feels awful, but.. it gets better."
He told me. I nodded.
I smiled.
for the first time in a while, it actually felt genuine.
