ace rants

FUCK DATING

A lot of my friends are having mutual crushes and dating and all that stuff and it's really not good. 

I mean it's great for them, but I feel like I'm going to sort of get left behind (Also how are they already getting crushes??? We've only been in school for a month????).

Also I've become really shy this year for some reason and everyone is making a ton friends and I'm not, so that's not great.

This is when I want to be in a QPR so badly because 

a.) I could have an aroace best friend, which would be fucking amazing

b.) Then I'd have someone like everyone else does

And I have a new squish but I going to right a separate chapter about her. Am I writing three chapters tonight? Yes.

At least I want to be someone's superrr close friend, so sen if they're dating someone else, they'll tell me every single thing that happens in that amazing excited voice.

But right now I'm back to feeling sort of unbelonging so that's just absolutely fantastic!!