Love Lives Forever

Chapter 7: Depressed? Oh Nevermind

October 1979

Alana POV

Its been 2 months. Michael & I barely hang out anymore. He always claims he's busy or some unbelievable shit like that. He cant lie to me though. He's been acting like that since i turned him down. Did i hurt him that bad? Im sorry but i cant do it. I got my career then he got a whole bunch of groupies & his fans crazy and I just cant deal with all that. And i know Michael is insecure & jealous. He would be ready to fight or dump me if he knew i had male friends. I just cant do it. Then i still don't appreciate the fact of him lying to me. I know it was a small lie but still. He lied. And i been waiting for 6 years to tell me he loved me. Now its his turn to wait. I wasn't trying to say i would never be with him. Just, not right now.

Michael POV

I sat in the bed, depressed like always. I can't believe she turned me down. See, I knew this would happen. I knew she would turn me down. I told Mother that. But they still kept urging me to do it. Look where it got me now. In the bed, depressed. I grabbed my notebooks, papers & tape recorder & thought about all the songs I wrote about Alana. I looked at one in particular. It was called "I Just Can't Stop Loving You." I didn't finish it cause I don't have a reason to finish. But I guess I'll try. This is what I have so far:

I just want to lay next to you for awhile
You look so beautiful tonight
Your eyes are so lovely
Your mouth is so sweet
A lot of people misunderstand me
That's because they don't
Know me at all
I just want to touch you

And hold you

I need you

God I need you

I love you so much

Each time the wind blows

I hear your voice so
I call your name
Whispers at morning

Our love is dawning

Heaven's glad you came . .

You know how I feel

This thing can't go wrong

I'm so proud to say I love you

Your love's got me high

I long to get by

This time is forever

Love is the answer

I hear your voice now

You are my choice now

The love you bring

Heaven's in my heart

At your call

I hear harps

And angels sing

You know how I feel
This thing can't go wrong
I can't live my life

Without you

I just can't hold on
I feel we belong

My life ain't worth living
If I can't be with you

I just can't stop loving you

I just can't stop loving you

And if I stop