When We Were Young

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• Na Jaemin •

When I woke up again, Ahra is not here anymore, but replaced with Kun hyung, Yangyang, and Haechan.

"Morning sunshine!" Haechan said sarcastically.

"I sent Ahra home while ago since she can't be stressed since she has-" Kun hyung suddenly cut off Haechan and shake his head not to continue what he is about to say. Probably something that I shouldn't know?

"Let's not put a heat, okay?" Hyung stopped him before he can spill rocks from his mouth "Jason is still unconscious and no one knows what's gonna happen next, let's just hope for the best for him" he smiled right after he said that.

"Jaemin-ah you can go if you want" Yangyang smiled to me "Ahra won't hold you back anymore if you don't wanna do this for him" I look at the unconscious child in bed.

"If I leave am I doing the best choice?" I asked while looking at the child.

"It's best for you and Yerim, if you stay it's best for the twins" I stared at the child for a long time and I can't process if I should leave or stay.

Until someone stepped in the room, everyone knows already.

He looked surprise seeing me here "you are here?" Jeno asked unsurely, I only nodded to him without looking at him.

"Well that's-" he suddenly stop talking and I looked at him waiting to continue to say something.

"So you already knew Ahra is also having same problem as your son?" He changes the topic that suddenly made me look at him for unknown reason.

"What do you mean Ahra has the same problem as him?" I asked, he look at the other's who wanted to shut his mouth.

"She has a heart problem, she will lose her life anytime since the hole in her heart is getting bigger" he answered "that's why Sora moved back here in Korea to pull back Ahra to stay here for her safety and the kids" he also explained.

Kun looked away when I turned to him "is this why she asked me to do this?" I asked and he didn't.

"ANSWER ME!"

"Before you raise your voice remember, you weren't there when she needed you, you weren't there when she nearly died when she gave birth, when she choose to prioritize the twins inside her while she was carrying them, when she choose to protect your image by staying somewhere far from you!" Haechan voiced out that made me realize the things I have done to her in the past "she sacrificed too much for you, even her health, and now here is your son laying in a hospital bed"

"First time we saw them in person, they asked if one us is their father" Jeno also butted in.

"I think you should talk to Ahra Jaemin-ah" Kun hyung suggested "Ahra needs you even if she gave up asking you the favor she asked"

"Also talk to Yerim, make her understand" he added.

The door opened and Sora came in "nurses told me that they heard someone shouted in here, did something happened to Jason?" She went next to the kid and checked on him.

"Just an argument" Kun assured her, then she turned to me.

"If you are irresponsible enough, just leave" she said coldly to me before she look back to Kun hyung "tell the nurse to call me if something happens to him" she said before she takes her leave.

I went after her to talk to her.

"It's not what it looks like" I pulled her to face me "look Sora I know I've done lot's of mistakes in the past with your sister and I just found out about her condition"

"And what you are going to pretend?"

I realized that people around me turned negatively on me right after what happened to me and Ahra back then, when I pretended to care when we saw her in the floor bleeding, when I became cold to her.

This is this why Jisung also always tried to avoid me with Ahra just like how we run to each other's when she visited them in the dorm?

"I guess you will, good luck with that" she was about to leave me when she suddenly turn back to me "if something happens to my sister because of you, I swear you won't see a finger of your kids ever again" after she threatened me then she left.

Since when Ahra had a heart problem?

Question that I can't answer nor will get an answer, nurses suddenly rushed in my way, towards Jason's room.

I also run back and all I hear is straight beep, nurses checking on him.

I looked at the little boy, and now I see what I've done to the three of them.

All I can feel is numb and blurry vision, being pulled out of the room.

If something happens to him it is all my fault.

"Hyung is he going to be fine?" I asked Kun hyung who is smart enough to answer me, he only smiled to me.

"Nurses came out and told us that he is fine now" Jeno went out from the room to announce to us.

Kun hyung pulled me back in the room, Ahra's appa and Sora is still inside, Sora caressing his cheeks.

"Wake up buddy, you asked me to take you and your sister to lotte world, right?" Sora said to him "me and your mommy will make you happy no matter what"

"Where is Ahra?" Her appa asked.

"We let her go home to have some rest since it is bad for her to be stressed out" Yangyang replied to him.

"Do you mind if you give us some family time?" He asked, we all agreed.

We all walked back to the door "aren't you going to stay for your son?" He asked.

"I am not a family, I am just a threat in your family" I answered without looking.

Someone patted my shoulder "you should stay here, he needs you Jaemin-ah" Yangyang brightly said "we will go out first"

I went back and stood far from the bed, without looking to anyone.

"First grand child and son" he started to speak "most loving and carrying to his mom, I know where he got that kind of attitude and we all know he has a lot of similarities to you Jaemin-ah"

"They've been wanting to see their real dad, but we just can't give them the one last puzzle piece to complete their wishes"

"Ahra really wants you to come back for the kids, but she also doesn't want to take your happiness away because she still loves you and still willing to do what's good to make you happy"

"We know you love somebody else now"

"Appa let's not force him, if he is not their father then he is not, just let him go, he doesn't love eonnie anymore and we are sure if the twins will find out about them Ahra will only get hurt again" Sora spoke this time "Appa she suffered so much, and we can't let her risk her life again"

"I will leave her" I spoke carelessly "I already promised that even if I see her once again and fell for her again I won't come back to her again"

"This is the last time I you will see me near the kids and Ahra"