When We Were Young

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• Park Ahra •

After Christmas, Jaemin's parents invited us to go to their home to have some time with their grandkids, I decided to ask Jisung to come with us since he is also my family all this time.

Jisung is one of our long lost cousin after the chaos of our family, me and Sora don't know our family members or cousins. Luckily it all got sort out now and we get to bond.

We are currently driving to their house, Jisung offered to drive since he is the only man with us, Jisung also didn't want me to drive during snow. If only he knows snow in Canada is worst than Korean snow.

"Is Jaemin hyung going to be there noona?" Jisung suddenly asked in Korean while driving, the kids are also asleep.

"He didn't mention going, or his parents, I also didn't tell him that we are going there" I replied to him and he just nod while his eyes on the road.

"You and hyung never got to talk anyways" he sighed after he replied to me.

"Is there something to talk to?"

"Your family matters noona, the kids?" I stayed quiet since he already knows "also you noona"

"Noona you need to stay here, your family is here, you and the kids are going to be alone in Canada"

"Don't you think you went away for too long? Everyone in here misses you, don't let the past go over your head and think for your future that is going to be better than the past" indeed Jisung is now grown up "be someone else noona, start fresh"

"I'll think about it Jisung-ah"

As we arrived Jaemin's parents house, they were waiting outside, they both came and run towards the kids with biggest smile.

Seeing their only grandchildren after long long time being taken away, they only have limited time to be with them.

"You are here" Jaemin's eomma hugged them both with Jaemin's appa.

"Let's go inside before they get cold" Jaemin's appa suggested "I thought Jaemin is coming with you?" He suddenly ask while we walked in to the gate "he mentioned that he is going to come and visit since he doesn't have any schedule or plan"

"He didn't mention to the kids" I replied to him calmly and he just nod it away.

We all went in to their house, they are also surprised about Jisung's presence and also Jisung being my cousin. Same here.

They already started spoiling them with fresh picked fruits, they both felt at home like they always come here every weekends, while this is my 2nd time coming here and I still feel awkward with Jaemin's parents.

Good thing they don't bite.

I sat in the living room with Jaemin's appa while Jisung joined the kids in the kitchen attacking their pantry.

"How is Jason doing?" He calmly asked with a warm smile "he is been doing well these days and they have adjust Korea now" he nods as an agreement.

"Well that's good to hear, we really wish to spend more time with them before they leave" he sadly said "we don't know when are we going to see them again"

"Me and my wife wants to know them better, we want to get closer to them and get more bond like how your parents does to them" I only put a small smile to him and nod.

"You can always come and visit them in Canada" I suggested "I will handle your plane tickets and your stay"

"That's too much to ask, and we also can't leave for long time since we have our business now" he shyly replied and scratched his nape "it's nothing, it's for your grandchildren anyways" I positively said to him "just tell me if you want to visit them, I will book you and your wife a ticket" he shake his head.

"Jaemin did a lot of things and we don't want you to do that for us, we can just wait for them to return"

"Ahy! Just tell Jisung or me and that's my promise" Jason came towards me white strawberries in his hand.

He held one strawberry in front of me "ah mommy" I opened my mouth as he feeds me the strawberry and went to his halabeoji also to feed him.

"They are so sweet, Jaemin used to be like that" he said as he continues to look at Jason running back to the kitchen "and now we don't know why he turned like that"

The front door opened that made me and Jaemin's appa turn to the hall way from the front door "appa we are here"

We?

Jaemin walked in holding hands with, non other than his love, Jaemin looked surprise seeing me with his appa "Ahra-ssi what are you doing here?" He nervously asked.

"We asked her to come here with the kids, we wanted to spend time with them" Jaemin's appa replied for me "we can leave if you-"

"-the kids and Ahra is not leaving this house yet" Jaemin's appa cut me off that also shock me, Jaemin's eomma came in and gasped.

"Jaemin-ah? Yerim-ah?"

"Daddy" they run towards Jaemin, Jaemin was also shocked when they both came out.

Is this my fault this time? Is he going to be in trouble because of me?

"Daddy who is she?" Jasmine starts to ask question on him as she looks at Yeri while hugging Jaemin's leg.

"Daddy?" Yeri asked Jaemin. She didn't know?

"Can you take them somewhere else first?" Jaemin's eomma asked Jisung and he quickly agreed "kids why don't you go with uncle Jisung? Uncle Jisung will buy you snacks and play in the snow, okay?"

Luckily they both agreed and went with Jisung right away, no one opened their mouths until we hear the front door closing.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He suddenly asked me harshly.

"We asked for her to bring the kids since you have no plan claiming them" his dad replied as quick before I can open my mouth "Yerim doesn't know doesn't she?" Yeri shook her head while her eyes are about to eat me.

"We thought you are going with them, since you told us you are coming here" his mom spoke this time.

"I am asking you" he shifted his eyes to me "why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want to bother you because you've been with us since Jason got surgery, I didn't want to bother you because I have no rights to ask you to always come with us, and I am also avoiding to have public ties with you" I replied to him calmly "I gave in to your parents because they are their family Jaemin-ssi, they only have limited time to see them before we fly back home"

"Appa why did you ask her without telling me?" He turned to his appa.

"It's best if only her and the kids, you might try to control her" he replied to Jaemin.

"How come I can control her, she doesn't even tries to open a conversation with me"

"Because there is nothing to talk about, all I care is their happiness Jaemin-ssi, which is you" I tried to pull myself together to let him know that I am not the one needing him but the kids.

"Wait?" Yerim finally opened her mouth "those kids are?-"

"Yes they are mine" Jaemin cut her off "don't tell me you are going to make me choose?" She nods to him, holding her tears, he looks at me with eyes full of anger.

"Are you going to choose me or them?" She asks Jaemin once again.

"It's alright, you don't have to choose them" Jaemin looked back to me.

"Jeno said you needed me the most"

"Jeno might be lying" I plastered the same smile that I've been showing for the past few days already.

"Ahra, I know you have the same problem as Jason"

"There is one way to find out" I replied to him.

I took my bag that is sitting on the couch that I was sitting in along with my coat "you can come visit the kids anytime, I will fly you to Canada whenever you want" I smiled to Jaemin's parents before I walk out with my things, I also contact Jisung right away to come and pick me up.